In my infinite wisdom just before my ADHD medication starts, just before I am diagnosed, things aren’t great at my job, I’ve been there 2.5 years at this point & things haven’t improved & I honestly cannot see them improving so I start looking for another job, one with more money & career progression… I’m not applying for every job because I don’t hate my job, I’m looking at ones that interest me.
A job comes up in the same industry & the same job only seemingly a step up to have ‘manager’ in the title, I apply & get a zoom interview. The guy who will seemingly be my boss calls me in the next few days to see how I feel about the role. I explain it’s a lot less money & it doesn’t come with a car, so I have to upgrade my shitty old 2001 car as I’ve basically had a brand new work car for 10 years. He explains there is a $15k upfront allowance & I’ll just have to keep receipts or the govt will charge me tax on the remaining amount at tax time. I think that’s a fucking weird way to pay an allowance, but I think of how this will help out buying a new car. I am also concerned about the drop in actual pay rate, not just the car, but he assures me that commission structure that he’s set up is super achievable & within a month or two I will be consistently making commission which means I will be earning a lot more than I do now, even including the loss of the perk of a car.
We also discuss the fact I don’t want to be stuck doing the administration side of the role, which is what the commission is based on, but he assures me that there is plenty of support & I won’t be doing that for long either. I mean that would take my career back three years if I had to start doing that part of the job again… He reassures me that this role is the progression & money I am looking for. I think if I have the $15k for a new car, then I won’t have an issue there, then I can live a couple of months on a lower pay until the commissions kick in. I read my contract & stupidly I sign without actually taking it ALL in… I signed with the thrill of a new job, new position title & the prospect of achieving great things!
I can see the opportunity with this new company for the career progression I am seeking, that I take the leap & quit my job. I quit a job that I like, that I got at a time I was unemployed & thinking I wouldn’t never work again, but when my reputation is always at stake in this role – I offer something & they never deliver so I’m the one that looks like the fuck wit over & over again, having to dribble shit to cover someone’s ass, I am fed up. Not only that, I haven’t actually made that many friends there. Of course I made friends, but it was an even more solitary role than my previous one, as I had no team of my own & didn’t fit in with the other teams (work wise) so I was always on the out, if that makes sense. There is a severe lack of leadership at that workplace, no one is managing, even if they are a manager. Incidents are just glossed over & never dealt with. It’s a bit of shemozzle.
My soon to be new boss discusses his travel plans to come to Adelaide to be with me for the first three days then I’ll work from home two days. He doesn’t actually say it’s a work from home job, or provide me with start or finish times, so I just figure I’ll be there when he fly’s in on the Monday. I have a week off between the jobs because it’s my birthday & while I am actually turning 42, I am finished with my reno & covid isn’t fucking up the party plans, that I’m finally having my 40th party.
In my notice period, I have four days left, I am honestly working so hard to hand over everything but they are making it so easy to leave… I realise how much I do, when I hear on the grapevine that my role is being split into two people. Yeah fuck you! However, I get a text from my soon to be new boss saying he is finishing up with the organisation effective immediately. He says I’m going to smash the role & to have a happy birthday. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.
I freak out of course, I find the email address of the other dude who interviewed me to basically say ‘please explain.’ He calls me & says that if he knew that guy was going to text he would’ve called straight away. He asks if I am open to travel (I assume no one wanted to come induct me in Adelaide), which I say I can & so next minute he’s booking me on the same flight as my friend who’s been in Adelaide for my Birthday.
Ok what’s all this got to do with a boy? Well nothing really, except how I ended up in Brisbane. Bahaha. So this is also around the time I am adding every random add on Snapchat – you can follow along with the snapchat screenshot blogs! I have added a few people while in Brisbane for work, chatting in the street waiting for my new boss – who is the General Manager to pick me up from the hotel, I am chatting nicely to a guy & then bam dick video… Hmmm thanks mate! He says ‘whoops accident’ but it’s too late, he’s been blocked.
The week in Brisbane is uneventful, I found out the gossip that the manager that hired me, was actually fired in his probation as he was a bully, so maybe it’s for the best that he was let go? But the week is a shambles. No one really does anything with me at all…. I don’t know if I’m supposed to buy my own food or what. I don’t know what the start & finish times are & to top it off, Wednesday in Brisbane is a public holiday. A chick works but all we do is go out to lunch. At the end of my first week, I barely even know what my role is or what is expected of me…
I get shoved in an Uber on Friday midday for the airport, as I am almost there, I add some more randoms & someone comes up & he’s in Brisbane, working right near the airport. I tell him too bad cos I am about to fly home. But he sends a face pic & he’s cute & can hold a conversation so I don’t delete him.
However, once I’m home it’s sporadic at best with him, initially replying to all my snap stories, then just one a week, to radio silence. I don’t delete him like I normally would maybe because he’s cute?! I don’t know… One morning I see the cake next to him name, which means it’s his birthday, I say happy birthday & he says thanks but it’s not his birthday. That sparks a chat for a couple of days but then fizzles out. No big deal. I leave him in my list despite the one to two weeks with no chats from him.
One night, I am chatting to this other guy on the regular – maybe he’s the one that needs a post hahaha, but Real Estate comes up asking how my night is, telling me how beautiful I am etc… I ask how his transition into Real Estate is going as he’s just switching jobs & he asks from my snap story why I am looking for a new job.
So I am now looking for another job. I was played by another fucking type of man, not a man I am dating but the guy who was fired, either genuinely believed what he told me or he was a fucking liar – a typical sales person. So I have dropped a significant amount of money per fortnight, there is no $15k car allowance – in fact, the car allowance is part of my salary, so technically I have really dropped even more money. (I mean how dumb am I, those who know what jobs I’ve had, know I should know better, the contract states that too FFS. But also an allowance is actually tax free, so this is not an allowance. This is just a way to pay people less.)
There is also the commission structure, which with the reputation the company has in Adelaide, that I’ve witnessed in the short time that I’ve been there, is going to be unachievable in the first year, maybe even at all. Again, I am putting a lot of pressure on my personal reputation in the industry to ensure they deliver the goods…. There are lots of things about this role that isn’t what it should be, I have basically taken a ten year hit money wise & the administration work takes three years off my career. I left for career progression & I don’t see that happening in this role, at all. All the senior managers are in Brisbane. Especially not now that I have a new manager who is your typical used car salesman, his catch phrase is – well he has several but one is, “would you like fries with that?”
What’s worse is that no one in the organisation in SA or QLD have any fucking idea what I have to do to get commission but the other staff on commission only have to get 6 per month more than me… Um they sit behind a computer all day & their leads come in through website enquiries, I’m on the road & doing 100 different things, even more so now I have this new boss, who also likes to say “What’s the pain point?” Um you are dude!
Anyway, Real Estate is listening to all of this crap & understanding how frustrated I am, I am also delving into my eating disorder & ADHD… This guy has barely chatted & now I’m oversharing like a fucking wanker?! No wonder people back off from me so easily… What is wrong with me?!
We get onto the topic of porn – what a jump from my job, I tell him the types of porn I like etc & then I think it’s coming, any second now, I’ll be confronted with his cock pic that I have to acknowledge in some positive way… Yep here it is, he sends me a snap, I look at it & it’s just his side of the bed, freed up for me apparently. Hahaha, props to Real Estate, he never sends me a dick pic.
But he disappears often – for days at a time, like is he married? I guess I’ll never know cos we’ll never meet so what does it matter? I mean I don’t initiate the chat much, so perhaps that’s it too? But I hate that whole thing of them being so chatty & then just ignore your last message for days on end… What pisses me off is that I am always available when they message me… When am I going to be the one that ignores some fuck wit for days while they sit & wonder why…?
But to top it all off, I am looking for a new job, I have been getting no where, which is really frustrating. I seek advice on resumes & cover letters which is so confusing that I think that I have fucked up my applications. On the Monday I have a small disagreement with my boss & then he makes a meeting on the Thursday with me. I attend via zoom, ready to just placate him & do as he says when he says that he won’t beat around the bush with todays meeting, they are terminating my employment in my probation as I am not the right fit for the company. FUCK. 4 weeks before Christmas, I am fucked with no prospects!
FUCK.
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