Marvel #23

August 2024

It’s my birthday week & it’s unusual for Marvel to message me every day of the week, but he has this week, I have been vague about when I am free this week because I am temping & if I don’t go to work, I don’t get any money, so it’s hard to to give up time for an interview & a time for sex. I do mention that it’s my birthday & I want a birthday fuck but he doesn’t ask what day or when.

When he suggests Thursday – I truly believe that he knows it’s my birthday but pretends he doesn’t know it’s my birthday – snapchat has a birthday reminder & it also puts a birthday hat on your bitmoji on the day… So, when on the day he says ‘you just wanted a birthday fuck’ which I reply that he was the one who suggested Thursday. Maybe he didn’t know & it’s just the little birthday cake next to my name on snapchat that he noticed this morning, but I like to think that he did know it was my birthday. I need to squash that type of thought because not only are we just fuck buddies & what fuck buddy knows their fuck buddies birthday, but he’s told me before that he’s terrible with dates so maybe he doesn’t but who cares I am about to get a birthday fuck, so I am not bothered if he knows or not – I would have told him when he got there that it was my birthday…. Plus, he did say happy birthday – sort of?!

I have a job interview in the morning in the city, so I meet him afterwards at my house – I do a lot of driving this day just because I am so desperate for sex & miss a day at my temp job to fit in fucking him, so this better be good! I mean let’s face it, when has it ever been bad? I wouldn’t be in this mess, 7 years later if it was ever bad.

He seems to take a while to get to my house once I say I am home, having messaged when I was leaving the city, so figured he would time it to be there when I get home, not wanting to waste any time & knowing that I have to go to another interview like an hour away from my house. I believe that doesn’t have notifications turned on this snapchat account, so he doesn’t know I’ve messaged & said I am on my way home from the city. He doesn’t look at it. This is not unusual, I don’t know why I even worry about it sometimes, this guy has always played it on his terms, for 7 fucking years I have never held the cards ever, so why am I surprised when he doesn’t look at my messages?

Even though we fucked for a significant amount of time & he hung out for a little bit afterwards, my only real recollection of this session is one of the most intense orgasm of my life… Yes you read that right – is this even possible at this point in this relationship with Marvel? How can things get better & more intense? I have no idea how but we started by kissing, I got on top & then I always slide down to suck his cock, when I realise it’s my birthday so I ask why am I sucking his dick, so I spin around & stick my cunt in his face, then lean back down to suck his dick. The ol 69 trick.

Now readers who are picturing me, may want to skip to the next paragraph, this position always feels good, but can be a bit of effort to both get the right spot, but he is getting the exact right spot on my clit – sometimes he can go a bit hard, it’s still good but when it’s softer like this, it is off the charts good… As he sucks & the way my legs are spread over his head, I am really open over his face that his mouth is on my clit but when he breathes out his breath, it’s right over my asshole… I am able to gyrate my hips with the motion of his tongue & mouth, getting into the same rhythm doesn’t always happen quite in sync, but this is just in the same motion, the right pressure, the breath on my ass that I am barely able to keep my mouth on his cock, I am moaning so hard telling him not to stop, which has basically now just turned into me sitting on his face backwards, there is no 69 because I cannot suck his dick. I cannot concentrate; my nipples are even rubbing on his hairy stomach which are increasing the sensation. He is relentless, reading my body like a book, like he always does but somehow more in tune today that usual, our rhythm is just right… me rocking back & forth on his face, his sucking the right spot on my clit, his breath caressing my asshole… Then it hits me like a ton of bricks, I cum so fucking hard & quickly & I keep cumming as he sucks on my clit a little harder.

I collapse to the side, barely able to turn back around, but I do & he isn’t done so he fucks me again which of course I cum, but I don’t think I will ever cum that hard again. Did turning 43 just intensify the orgasms? Or was it the birthday sex? Or was it that we just got the position right without even trying today? I can’t obviously remember every orgasm with Marvel – that would be impossible at this point, unless I wrote about every session straight after it happened, but fuck this one – maybe because it’s more recent, but honestly, most orgasms I’ve had to work for, like concentrate, get myself in the right position, really get out of my own head about how I look etc & then it builds up – are most women like that? Well, this one, I was just enjoying the moves, I wasn’t building, but it was feeling so good, then bam, I was cumming. Out of nowhere without even thinking about it. How the fuck does that even happen?

Ironically though Marvel talks to me a little afterwards, I initiate the conversation which isn’t usual, he will usually message me first after sex but I did because I still had jelly legs from that orgasm. He only sends 2 messages to me before he goes offline for almost 2 weeks. I think the things that hurt are the fact that I have literally had such an intense moment, with someone I stupidly am realising that I am still in love with, but he doesn’t want to talk to me. Maybe this is the way that he protects himself, maybe he didn’t realise how intense it was, I mean I didn’t shut up about it, so I’m sure he did know exactly how intense it was… Maybe I’m the idiot in love & he’s just here for sex…

We do finally talk about it through & says that because my ass was in his face & I’ve said that his breath was hitting my asshole, that he was considering licking it because it was so in his face. We’ve not rimmed each other at all, even after all the time, I know it’s not a first for him, but it would be a first for us together. He says that even though I stopped sucking his cock it was my birthday so he had to keep going & I remind him of how weak my legs were.

We have a discussion about how I want to fuck in the shower, logistically being I am munchkin & him being a giant, we are probably not going to be able to do it without some sort of slippery injury but I joke about him lifting me & he says that he’d give it a crack. It’s annoying cos at that time, I am pretty small – shortly after this, I put on about 13 kgs & feel awful about myself. I remind that if he just makes me feel a little bit good about myself, that I will be more confident & do anything that he wants me to do. Even then I tell him that it wouldn’t kill him to be nice to me, say something nice, but he doesn’t & hardly ever boosts my ego, unlike me who is boosting his ego every time we chat…!

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