April 2025 – ⚠️Teenager Girlfriend Alert
14 April 2025 – We chat a lot today but nothing really worth writing about – I’m trying to skim stuff! Hahaha, that’s not going well is it?! We haven’t seen each other for a week & I am sad about that & missing him, he finally admits that he misses me too which makes me smile like a dipstick. He offers up lunch tomorrow when he finishes at his hospital appointment, which I don’t understand how he’ll be able to come see me after, won’t his wife be with him? I mean I know I have just gone to the appointment to get my stiches out alone but I am alone, I don’t have a proper partner to go with me, despite calling him my boyfriend, but I would expect that going blind in one eye would warrant a wife coming to the hospital with you… Apparently not. He says that for my appointment he would have had to cancel anyway because his wife is home sick because she’s upped her Ozempic, so lucky he bailed yesterday anyway. I tell him that I would have come with him to his appointment if he had of told me that he was going alone. He says that I work full time & can’t just go, but I would have through up some excuse or called in sick. He also decides it’s a good time when I am feeling (& he knows it) fatter than ever, that his wife has lost 15kgs on Ozempic, that she’s always sickest on Mondays after injecting on Fridays & gets migraines… He says she even came home one Monday that he fucked me & he only got home a few minutes before her… Dude, she calls in sick Mondays cos she doesn’t want to work till 9:00pm, not because she’s sick! She has always used Mondays as her call in sick day or days when he is off.
While I am struggling with my weight – as always but I have put on about 13kgs in this fucking job because I hate it so much, I just eat shit all day, I say, “Yeah loving hearing that… Just another woman skinnier than me… Don’t say I’m sexier cos I don’t care.” I know what he is going to say to reassure me, but what he doesn’t get is that it’s not reassuring, I work so hard at the gym – yes I am eating shit lately but I just feel awful, “IBD4U… I’m not attracted to her body 😐 Her gut is like twice the size of you. And looks like a brain. You are soooo much sexier. Her tits are saggy and gross … Yours are firm and amazing. And you have a sexy firm ass. Your body is soooo much better. I wish you didn’t compare your weight to others …” First if he’s not attracted to her, how does he fuck her? Second, why would you want to stay with someone you’re not attracted to & are telling someone they are saggy & gross? I get he says he loves her, but can you imagine having a man talk about you to his mistress or anyone like this? I say that I don’t care, I am sick of everyone getting on injections or having weight loss surgery when I work so fucking hard at the gym & never lose weight or feel smaller… I know muscle weighs more than fat but I never feel better! I say that I have to lose about 15-20kgs & he says, “No way, less, 10kg Max. You are a fucktard. After fuckin 8 years you still think you need to lose extreme amounts of weight. I see nothing changes with you 😛” I wish I could see myself through his eyes, but fuck I do have about 20+ kgs to lose. I ask how much she weighed when she started Ozempic, he says 97kgs, which means if she has lost 15kgs, she currently weighs less than me! He also adds “I asked her what our wedding song was… didn’t go down well haha! And she didn’t tell me … Have to work it out for myself apparently.” Well that was a dumb fucking thing to ask her… Knowing how much music means to him, she should file for divorce just based on that!!
As we’re talking about sleepy sex & if he was up at 4:30am & woke me up with his stupid tv, he’d have to fuck me or I would be so angry, that I remember what I have been doing lately that I don’t think I’ve told him about, “Also, wanna hear a weird ‘toy’ I had been using… Haven’t used in a while actually might have to get it out…” He of course says yes & while I feel a bit weird about telling him now, I know that nothing I say to him about sex will be weird, “Well it’s not a sex toy, per se… A make-up brush… Like a soft fluffy one… Makes me cum just from lightly brushing my cunt… After teasing my legs & tummy & lips…” he says that he hasn’t seen anyone use a brush before so I send him some porn to watch to give him an idea, he says that he wants to do it to me & I would fucking love him too. I tell him that I want to use it on him & he says that he wants that too.
As we’re talking about some sex we had, I say that it was super hot & sexy & he says “You are super hot and sexy.” Which makes me smile & blush. When I say “You are my super hot & sexy BF & BFF.” & then I think he needs new acronym BFBFF. When he says “Best friend boy friend fuck fish.” I literally lose my shit laughing, fuck fish!!! OMG that is so funny!!! I tell him that I am going to use that now anytime he is snippy with me. “Hey Fuck Fish. I love you so much. BFBFF. You are my fucking weakness… Who am I?! Making up acronyms…” I don’t know who I’ve become really… I mean if this doesn’t scare him off, I don’t know what will! “Like I’m a teenager… Hahaha. But tbh… I haven’t really had boyfriends that I did this shit with so…. Strap in lad, cos you’re in for a ride…. 🤷🏼♀️ How teenage I can be?? Write our initials on my pencil case. Hahaha I can do out compatibility percentage… Hmmmm, what did we do… “ I google how to do the percentage thing, his shortened name & surnames got us 95% saying ‘your love burns hot as the sun, blazing through the vastness of space and searing itself into your being’ but his full first name & surnames got us 75% saying ‘Good enough. Might as well check love off your list of things society believes you should’ve accomplished by now’, with all three of our names we got 19% saying ‘Your love is like that which a parent with a newborn baby feels for sleep – distant and beyond consideration’ & the shortened version of his name with our middle & surnames got us 15% said the same as the last one. Fuck it just kept getting worse!
⚠️ Teenager girlfriend alert – is my new thing I do with him. I know he will think I am getting too close & he might pull away, he’s said he’s never going to end it multiple times, but he will pull back until I do. But to my surprise, every time I think up something lame, he laughs or says I’m cute or that I surprise him with my vulnerability… Um, not quite the reaction I was expecting but he has surprised me this whole time so I don’t know… I would have been like this before if I knew I could… I held back so much to protect myself… I then google our star sign compatibility –Encouraging Spontaneity: The Capricorn man’s typically reserved nature may initially conflict with the Leo woman’s desire for spontaneity. However, as she encourages him to be more expressive, he begins to enjoy the excitement of being open. The combination of his grounded nature and her passionate energy creates a unique and exhilarating intimacy. Relationship Insights: This section emphasizes the importance of understanding each other’s motivations to enhance their sexual connection. It describes how the Capricorn man’s stability allows the Leo woman to express her desires, while her enthusiasm motivates him to be more engaged. With patience and mutual respect, they can build a deep bond that honors both their differences and similarities. He says that he doesn’t really believe star signs & neither do I but as a teenager girlfriend, that is what I would have done. I say “You are my 95% BFBFF! Fuck Fish. The other 5% is all yours too…”
As we start to say goodnight for the evening as he’s taking ages to reply & I am feeling like he’s either sleepy or not interested, but I still sign off by saying “I love you my hot BFBFF. You’re my favourite person xxx” then he asks me “Would you really have come with me to the hospital?” I say that of course I would have & I still could still call in sick tomorrow, he says “How cute. I fuckin love you. Goodnight IBD4U.”
15 April 2025 – The next morning as we’re chatting pretty much about my G spot, being a little flirty, I ask “Do you ever wonder if two parts of the human body have ever fitted so well? Like ours were made for each other?” An infuriating reply is that he thinks I am like that with everyone which he knows is not fucking true as he takes great pleasure in reminding me that some men didn’t even make me cum & now he’s read my blog & knows that to be true! I respond, “No I am not like that with everyone you fuck fish.” & he says that makes him laugh every time, just as it did me, I don’t want to fight about my blog.
He has his hospital appointment & he can’t message me much & I wish that I just took the fucking day off & went with him! For the first time ever, I despise her. How awful letting your husband go to an eye appointment by himself knowing he might not be able to see after it due to drops they put in & also knowing he is scared of medical stuff. Stop taking fucking sick days because you’re injecting yourself with Ozempic (I’ve been on Ozempic before, yeah I felt sick but I never once called in sick or slept all day because of it!) & maybe you’d be able to be there for your husband when he needs you!
He gets the shopping centre near my work & we meet for lunch at the bakehouse. We both get a breakfast meal, I love an all day breakfast. He sists opposite me but then changes & sits next to me. I touch him as much as I can & tell him that I should have come with him to the appointment. I love that I have no inhibitions now for public displays of affection. When we are sitting close he is whispering things in my ear, the one thing I remember is when he calls me his girlfriend that it makes me so wet & squirm in my chair, that I want him so much. But I want my boyfriend to know that he is not just sex to me & I can resist him. Intrusive though time – every now & then now, with these dates, I hope that someone he knows does see us & he gets caught, I always kick myself that I wouldn’t touch him in Hungry Jacks when we met for the first time during affair two. He lied about who I was when his brother in law told his sister, but if I was holding his hand or sitting next to him, there would be no way to explain that away… But no one sees us, not even anyone from my work. When we walk back to his car, we are kissing & touching, but no sex… His dick is hard against me, then when I touch it, I realise it’s fucking huge & poking out of his shorts. Fuck I want sex with him but I love that we are having sexless dates… Why I am so torn about my desire to fuck him & my desire to show him that he is just not sex to me?!
Later that afternoon, right on cue, Phoenix starts talking about my blog, after such a great date & right before he has to go offline “I always wanted to be special to you. So the only thing I did when I read your blog was look for things that made me not feel special …. Like I know you love me, never got over me , etc. I just wanted some special things with you.” OMG he is talking about Rob Rob just so you know but fuck me, if this guy read my blog & doesn’t think he’s special to me, then I have literally no fucking clue what I can do to prove it to him!! He says I lied about it, but that’s not true, I just didn’t tell him about it – just as he didn’t tell me he was sexting with Cowboys Mistress, while she actively & publicly made me look like a fool, while they had a laugh about it privately & sent their addresses, setting up their fuck date! Rob Rob didn’t even know who he was on the chat app…
I am sick of this fucking conversation & I am pissed now writing about it, that I didn’t say anything about Cowboys Mistress – but I was too busy pumping up his ego instead of saying ‘YOU DID WAY WORSE THINGS YOU FUCK FISH!!!’ but instead, I say “Well, everything before BF & GF doesn’t count… So we wipe the slate clean!” I try to lighten the subject, but he says “Us meeting is important. Our first affair is important. Me Changing you as a person and making you feel loved is important. You madly declaring your love for during our second affair is really important to me. You being so madly in love with me that you went bat shit crazy and broke it off with me. Is important to me. There is no clean slate. You were never mine. You have never done anything wrong. There is no slate…” Hmmm, well then! “You did nothing wrong, I was just a retard and thought some things were special to me that were not… and assumed you felt the same way based on things you told me. It scares me and you know it does … Our situation sucks … I don’t expect all of you. 😐But fuck, I do deeply love you …” Maybe he sees that it was his perception, not what actually happened that is why he’s so upset about it?!
I say to him, letting my vulnerability out a little, “It scares me how much I love you… Especially since I don’t know what love is really…” but he says I do know, “You know what love is. Love is when you are with someone and it makes you happy. Like nothing else matters. Love is when you find comfort in someone, or that feeling of wanting to share everything with them. Its a warm fuzzy feeling you can’t shake. It’s constantly thinking of them. I know you love me. Because I feel it… And if you cant sense it with me… Your fuckin cooked. And you fell in love with me during our first affair. Not only does your blog prove it. But the emails you sent to me post affair do too.” Oh I know he loves me but if he thinks that what love is, we have it, & I realise that he doesn’t love his fucking wife! You can’t be truly happy with someone that you have to hide half your personality with…
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