April 2025 – Surprise
17 April 2025 – At 5:06am, the dogs jump off my bed with a bark, one of them treading on my face & scratching my arm – very unusual behaviour for the middle of the night, or early morning & I was dead asleep that I don’t even know what’s happening. I hear someone at the door & the dogs seem to be ok with whoever is at my house… I pick up my phone, Phoenix has messaged, which I read but it’s just a good morning message, then I see a light coming own my hallway in the mirror – why am I not panicking?! It takes me a minute to realise that it’s Phoenix. What the fuck is he doing here?! I am so confused. I ask him what he is doing here & he says he has a key so he decided to use it. He said he saw an opportunity, so he just decided to take it. Well fuck. I am so fucking glad I gave him keys…! I never thought he would use them without warning me – scared that I would have some dude in my bed, like I’m fucking all of Adelaide – as per his stupid brain… He gets into bed with me, & he’s surprised to find me naked, he knows I sleep naked but later tells me that he thought perhaps it was just something I said to be sexy & did when I knew he was coming over… Nope, it’s how I sleep, I never used too but find it so much more comfortable. The dogs are still loose so I have to get up & sort them out before I jump back into bed with him. It’s so dark, the sun hasn’t come up yet, so we fumble around touching each other, kissing & rubbing every inch of each other in the darkness. I have always preferred sex in the dark or muted lighting, so the guy can’t see my fat rolls or flaws, but not with Phoenix I tell him I want to see him & turn on the lamp after a while.
When I suck his dick, finally, for the first time in weeks because of my mouth, I am straddling his leg that my cunt rubs against his shin & as he starts making very sexy noises, I gyrate my hips a little & he senses what is happening that he moves his leg so I am now rubbing my clit on his leg while sucking his cock… HOT! When I slide down onto his cock I fuck him until I cum, being so wet from sucking his dick, once I cum he says that it was my first orgasm as his girlfriend & fuck I think that just made me want to cum again… He then flips me on my back where he can fuck me till he cums, he pulls out to cum all over me & gets some on his hand. I ask him if I can taste his cum & he calls me a dirty bitch as I lick it off his hands! We cuddle for a short time before he is saying he has to go, he does start work at 6:00am after all… I hate that he has to go, but I need to go to the gym then work so I guess he should leave…. I hug him tighter as he tries to get up & leave. He laughs pretending to be annoyed but I know he loves that I am trying to get him to stay just a few minutes longer.
When I look at my phone after he has left, only 45 minutes later, a short session but a very fucking hot session, I send him a response to his good morning message, with a huge smile on my face, “Hmmmm, morning…!! I don’t know how to tell you this… But someone came into my house & fucked me this morning… And I fucking came so hard & loved it. But I want to be honest with you. I even sucked his dick & rubbed my clit on his leg while doing it… Cos he made noises that really turned me on…” He laughs & says he’s ok with that. I tell him that I am so thankful for the surprise fuck & that I love him so much, I say that I am in the best mood & he says that he is too. We both admit to eating Hungry Jacks on the way to work. He says that it would have just been a call if he didn’t have a key but because he had it & had the time, he thought that he would come see me. I fucking love that I gave him a key! He said he was worried about my dogs killing him – which they wouldn’t do but they know him enough to know he’s safe & not a threat.
When we talk about how we still surprise each other, I say that I am still learning about this girlfriend thing, “It’s one thing Boyfriend did say to me, I may have told you before. That I don’t know how to be a girlfriend cos I hadn’t done it before…. So sometimes, I may need your help… And why I self sabotaged before cos I just assumed I wasn’t capable of it.” I mean I am 43 at this point in my life, I have never really done this before, I have no fucking idea what I am doing as a girlfriend… Am I doing it right?! He knows better than I do what it takes, “I think you do a fuckin amazing job being a girlfriend. I love how thoughtful you are with lunch , and bringing snacks and stuff. I think you are better than you think or realize. And the stuff you think that makes you weird is not …. Just the little things like wanting to cook for me or have Pepsi Max for me. You are capable of being a girlfriend and don’t need any help. I can’t help but love you even more because of it.” I mean I know I am thoughtful, so perhaps that is being a good girlfriend – anticipating his needs, he doesn’t know he has. Not in a repressed way, but in a way that I want to do things for him. He says the only thing I need help on is not making everything about sex – which is true. That is because I don’t get to see him enough to not want sex with him, so I always want sex until we get to see each other every day, I am always going to want sex when I see him – which is maybe once a week. But I also do it because it keeps a distance between us. I have admitted that he is my boyfriend & my guard is down so far, that this man has the power to destroy me…. I say to him, “We really have jumped off the page with a real face to face friendship & relationship.” He agrees & says that we are so honest & connected… That I feel like I need to confess some crazy – not crazy i hate that I used that word but a little unhinged for me perhaps, “So in the spirit of honesty… I feel like I need to share some crazy with you… 🫤”
As you all know, I don’t online stalk anyone, when I do it never goes well, so I just avoid it, but yesterday Phoenix shared a picture of himself at his mum’s birthday lunch, because he was asking if he should dye his beard as he thinks it’s too grey & he looks older. I knew his wife didn’t go to this lunch, but there is a chubbier women in the picture with him, so who the fuck is she?! Or was this a picture at the birthday dinner later that week & it is his wife? She looks familiar but I don’t think it’s his wife or what I know of his sister… But I don’t really know what either woman looks like, “So yesterday you shared a pic of your beard, sitting next to a chick. I thought surely he’s not sending me a pic of him & his wife… As she’s blocked I couldn’t see her pics – I thought it was your sister but I had to know… So I looked for your mum, cos I remembered her name but couldn’t remember your sisters name or what your bro had his name on FB cos I know it’s not surname… Anyway, I found your mum, found the pic was your sister & stopped being a fucking stalker. But today, your whole family came up as suggested friends… I’m happy to block them if you want me too – just didn’t want you to see them if you ever see my FB suggested fronds & think WTF… 😳 Would’ve just been easier to ask if it was your sister…. 🤷🏼♀️ I didn’t want to seem jealous…” Fucking Facebook keeps suggesting his whole family as people I may know, fuck… Will I come up on their page if I don’t block them? He says that I should have just asked him & he would appreciate if I block them, he asks why I think he would send me a picture of him with another woman, but then offers to send me a picture of his wife, if I want it… Do I want it?! Am I ok with that? If I was his wife & he was sending his mistress pictures of me, that would be worse to me than actually having a mistress!!
I mean I really don’t know what she looks like, every picture I saw of her was drastically different from the previous one, he reckons she’s blonde but I remember a photo where she was very brunette, another one was brunette with blonde streaks, only her wedding photo she was platinum blonde so I would probably walk right into her & not realise. “Surely you compared yourself to her when you saw the wedding photo. I just don’t get why the fuck you didn’t just ask me !” I don’t think anyone compares themselves to a bride, no matter who they are, which I didn’t, she looked beautiful & the other photo I remember she had really nice lips & smooth hair, but do I want him to send me a current photo, I don’t know. He says that his wife compared herself to me, of course she did, what woman doesn’t compare themselves to the mistress. I had no reason to compare myself because he told me all the time he found me more attractive than her, I was curious about her, of course, but I wasn’t curious for a comparison… Particularly since he chose her over & over again, despite what he says about my looks or his feelings for me, so it would probably be more depressing than reassuring. Honestly, I care more about our personalities – I compare that more than I compare our looks or bodies… However I do have one thought about the woman in the photo, the fact I am way smaller than her & can see why Phoenix likes me. “Haha my wife is def not that big. You guys are similar but she’s always bigger than uou like in the gut area, your body is so much better. She’s obviously lost a lot of weight in the last 3 months but you are still smaller.” I don’t know why but similar is not at all what I want to hear being she’s on Ozempic.
It’s interesting, he comes back online & says he’s drinking wine, I ask why because he’s told me he doesn’t drink or like wine, but his wife had a bad day & decided to have a glass so he’s drinking it with her but pairs it with a photo of his gaming area playing games. So she’s home, awake & drinking wine with him but he’s online chatting to me? RIGHTIO! I thought he couldn’t chat in her presence?! Maybe he only chats around her when they’re not having sex! Though he tells me that he hasn’t showered yet & his cock is still covered in our cum, which makes me oddly smug. I do mention that I am going to have to tell him now when I have my period so when he sneaks in again, he’s not disappointed, but he says that he would be ok just hugging me, but he says he won’t be able to do it often – which I get but just need to keep him informed, I would hate if he got here at 5:00am again & I had to say that I have a tampon in. We turn ourselves on so much that we are sending each other videos of us both cumming, even though only a few hours earlier we were fucking in my bed… It’s a nice way to end a day where I have been so happy, no fights, despite admitting what a fucking stalker I am!
18 April 2025 – The next day, given it’s a Friday & he can’t talk to me when she’s home – except when he’s in bed with her or he’s drinking wine with her, of course – other than that, he must be offline when she’s home! Fuck, it fucks me off but anyway, we talk about sex positions today & then discuss rimming. I haven’t ever really been into the idea of giving but I’ve had it done once or twice which I was too self-conscious to relax & enjoy it. I know that Phoenix’s wife has done it to him when she was super kinky for five minutes but never again, I want to do it to him & he wants to do it to me, so we discuss how this would happen. I watch some rimming porn, I mean I know it would be easy for him to rim me, but might be harder for me to rim him & I do not want to know what position they did it in…
I get some pretty sad news about my friends dad who was killed in a truck accident, I tell Phoenix but he just kind of says that he didn’t hear about it because of his Facebook algorithm doesn’t show him news anymore & that’s about all he says about, okay then. The topic just moves on to our lunch date set for tomorrow, which is Easter Saturday – he’ll finish work & I am planning on making a little charcuterie platter & take a picnic blanket, we’ll hang out & just have a sexless date at the beach again. He then sends me two memes that remind him of me, which the first one I had saved that day myself. The other one is because he’s talking about my cunt juices dripping into his ass crack, I suggest that I lick it up & of course he says “Shhhh IBD4U, I’m hard!” Hahaha. That was my goal.
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