June 2025 – School Girl of Hallett Cove
**Trigger warning for this post – consensual non-consent**
12 June 20205 – As I predicted, Phoenix doesn’t say hello to me in the morning, waiting till 8:10am when he’s dropped the kids off to say good morning & tell me he’s on way. I don’t know why he does this, when I know he’s been up for hours & tells me ALL the time that he ‘chat’s to me every chance he gets.’ I know we’re spending the day together – we’ll won’t be the whole day, he won’t get here till after 9:00am & will need to leave around 1:00pm, but he can still message in the morning so I don’t think he’s bailing… Especially since he knows I am planning a scene today & would need time to get ready.
I have dressed carefully, but obviously not carefully enough because ten minutes before he is due to arrive, I tug on the skirt to straighten it & the zip breaks – fucking shein. I am wearing a school skirt, shirt (if you can call it that, my tits are hanging out the bottom! But that is the look) & tie with knee high black boots. I have put heavy make up on my eyes, red lips, giant hoop earrings & I’ve put in my extra-long hair extensions for a school girl fantasy. I leave my glasses on, which I am not sure about but I think they give the young school girl look I am going for – but I don’t want to come across as school teacher. I wonder if I should put my hair in pigtails but I leave it down.
I had set up the scenario last night asking for help with my homework so he knows what I’ll be doing when he gets here but being he hasn’t text this morning, he probably doesn’t remember. We also have discussed this before. About playing the school girl character, & that this could be our ‘consensual non-consent’ scenario I say that I want to wait for the dance & thank him for waiting for me to be ready. I have set this up perfectly… And I am so excited about this scenario, I have to push my feelings aside…
For those who don’t know, I didn’t explain it last post, but consensual non-consent or CNC as it’s referred to, is the act of obviously Phoenix & I as consenting partners, playing a game of non-consent where one partner will resist the other partner in a non-consent / rape / assault type role play. It’s not for everyone, I get that. But it’s a bit like the intruder fantasy we had. Same thing. I have previously apologised to Phoenix, because I don’t think I am ever going to be able to ‘act’ by genuinely resisting him so he can overpower me & have me how he wants. Now this is all consensual & it’s not to disrespect anyone who has been sexually assaulted. This is more about the fantasy for us.
I look hot, I feel sexy & then I tug on the skirt to straighten it & as I said before, the fucking zip rips open with the zip still at the top – now I feel like an obese whale because I have just broken it open with my hips & a little tug but also because I can’t get it to move up or down, no matter what I do. I quickly get a pin & pin it but it looks a tad ridiculous. I guess I did buy from shein for just this occasion so it wasn’t that expensive, I guess. To be honest, he probably won’t even notice & if he does, he won’t say anything – he is usually pretty considerate in the moment. One time he surprised me in the morning & I had scar tape on my tummy scar, afterwards I was like fuck I have my scar tape still on & when I say something later, he just said ‘oh yeah I wondered what that was’ but in the moment, he didn’t say anything & make me feel awkward about it – he is good like that. I think he knows that it’ll kill the mood or make me self-conscious, maybe he doesn’t want to spoil the mood for himself either. I mean I have dressed up in a costume for him before but it’s not something I am comfortable with & I am not comfortable with my body, generally. Ironically, later when I try to pull on the zip, afterwards, it unzips perfectly & zips back up – of course, stupid fucking thing!
When he arrives at my house, I meet him at the door, leaning on the wall & I say instantly that my parents aren’t home & that I need help with my homework. I kiss him hello & tell him to come to my bedroom… I have my computer on the bed, with the pretence of doing homework & he kisses me, his hands going all over me, up my skirt & up my top however, I keep squatting his hands away (all with the idea that this is going to be a rape type scene). He pushes me on the bed & we are kissing but I keep the pretence of pushing his hands away, I start telling him to stop which spurs him on, which makes me say things like wait & don’t. I say stop more & more, which makes him rougher, holding me down a little & he pulls my panties down. I try my best not to make the noise we usually make when he enters me, the noise of sheer pleasure because this isn’t about letting him fuck me, I am supposed to be resisting, which is a lot harder than you think with someone you love & someone you want to fuck & that you’re trying to give a rape type fantasy too (consensually)!
I think my acting is fucking terrible, because all I want to say is ‘fuck me Phoenix, fuck me harder’ but I am supposed to be still pushing him off, which I am not successful but that’s also the point of this scenario. He cums really quickly, which pisses him off, but this was supposed to be a quick fuck. Of course I haven’t cum, so I push him down on his back & luckily, he stays hard once he’s cum, so I climb on top of him in my school girl costume & ride him so hard that I am cumming so fucking quickly myself. OMG, that was so fun… If that’s your thing, of course… We’re done fucking for now, considering he said we weren’t going to fuck at all today. Filled with his cum, we get up and get ready for phase two of what we have planned for our ‘whole’ day together.
I get changed quickly & am ready to go because he’s mentioned that his wife takes forever to get ready, needing to iron everything she wears before they leave the house. Then his daughter has long hair & he has to do it before they go so it takes them ages to get out the door. So I try to show how easy things are with me, firstly, I don’t own an iron at all, so I don’t iron anything & honestly, we aren’t going anywhere special that I don’t need to iron anything. I get dressed in my billabong leggings which have the word written in large letters up the leg & thin hooded active wear zip up jacket with a puffer type vest. I think I look very cute & simple for a walk at Hallett Cove. I leave my hair extensions in, which might be a mistake, but I want to look hot even though we are just going to a café & a walk along the boardwalk & I know that he loves the hair extensions & I want to make sure that I am looking the best I can for him.
I love being in the car with him & him driving, he doesn’t get it but whenever he asks whos car we should take, I think it’s because he doesn’t want to use his petrol, but I want him to drive because I love sitting in the passenger seat. We go out for lunch – which is basically Brunch as we get there around 10:00am, I have stupidly offered to pay because when we went to Hahndorf he paid & it was expensive. But it’s stupid because I have literally no money being it’s a Thursday, the before pay day. But I want to pay, just not when I have no money. However, I sort out my funds & I pay. We have a beach breakfast on a cool winter day where the sun is shining. Phoenix eats so fast so he is always done before me & as I am still chewing my last bite, he is jumping up & ready to go. I feel like this is funny, but I also reckon this would fuck me off if we ate together more often. Let me fucking sit a bit after I have finished eating too… I had given him two short acting ADHD drugs before we let my house, they should have kicked in by now, but clearly they aren’t doing anything because he’s rushing me to get going – so one might conclude that he doesn’t have ADHD?! I don’t say anything to him…
We start the walk along with Hallett Cove board walk. It says that it is 7.3kms one way & because of the terrain, it can take up to three hours to go one way, which we won’t have time to do the whole thing. As it is, we actually walk 1.5kms before we turn around & walk back. We walk & talk holding hands so easily, so casually, so comfortably. Because I said that I wanted to take photos of us together & he was okay with it, saying every time I’ve mentioned it that we should have done it… As we stand at a lookout & I pull out my phone, I tell him to come close that we’re taking a photo, that he puts his arm around me, & then he grabs my waist, pulling me in so tight that it takes me by surprise. He said he wanted a picture with me, but as a married man this is fucking stupid of him, but his tight grip on my waist makes me realise that he wants this picture too. He’s hugged me so many times, but this is a different sort of hug or touch, it’s firm & pulling me in close. We take one with the beach in the background but we are staring into the sun, him squinting & me with my sunnies on, that he makes us turn but it’s dark & the background is shit. I don’t want to make him take a million photos with me – knowing his wife apparently took photos with him to post in the hopes that I would see them, so I put my phone away, but they aren’t the best photos of us… I am dying to feel like I just felt – his arm so tight around my waist, what is that about. He’s obviously held me before, but not on the side like that, like he really wanted to be there & he really wanted that picture with me. It makes all the shit of the long weekend dissipate.
We walk some distance & back just like a real active couple. I like this activity because I don’t picture them going for a walk together… I don’t want to know if they do, I want to believe that he only does this with me… We get back to the car & I realise that we didn’t do any geocaching, but then I remember that there aren’t any on the boardwalk because it is a conservation park. So, on the way home we stop a couple of times to hunt for some. I am so annoyed that I have done this a lot so I can sometimes sense where they are, so I always get them before Phoenix. It’s hard because I want him to see the geek side of me finding them but I want him to find some first too… But honestly, one of the funny things about geocaching with him is that he clearly doesn’t like to go in the bushes or pick them up out of the depths of a tree trunk because he might get something on his hands. After sex or fingering me, he always washes his hands, so I realise how much he doesn’t like stuff on his hands. But he talks about how much he likes geocaching though & when I suggest he should do it with his kids, he doesn’t say it really, but it’s like he wants this to be something he just does with me…
When we get home, he fucks me over the kitchen bench, I sit on the bench & he also fingers me, then he fucks me while I sit on the bench, it’s a bit high but if I slide right to the edge, it’s not a bad height for us to fuck like this. Before I have even gotten off the bench, he strips off & goes to have a shower. I don’t join him, but after the shower I notice he’s still wet & he’s getting dressed that I follow him with a towel to dry him off. He is only at my house about 30 minutes before he leaves & I notice that his little Gameboy is on my kitchen table. Did he mean to leave it?
I send him the pictures of us, & he tells me to use AI to edit the photos as we both agree that they aren’t that great… I spend some time trying to edit the photo because Phoenix eyes are closed but I actually find an app that is AI & will convert the picture to a moving picture like a GIF. I tell it to make us kiss & OMG it’s so cute. It turns our picture into a movie of us giving each other a kiss. It looks a bit dodgy but it’s cute & I love it. Phoenix thinks I’m an idiot probably but he laughs at them saying something about me loving the AI app – which is true! He says he’ll look at them with his AI app when he gets time because mine literally changes our faces completely, but fun fact – he never does!
I also ask about the Gameboy thing, asking if he meant to leave it behind, he went out to the car especially to get it & then left it behind. However, he tells me that I can have it for a while & I this is how I need to remember he loves me. He wants me to play with this toy, assuming his wife who is younger than both of us probably isn’t into commodore 64 games, probably doesn’t even know what the games are, so I like that this is something he involves me in, he likes that I am interested in his hobbies & leaving this device that isn’t an actual Gameboy behind is how I know we are connected beyond just superficial stuff… Though it also makes me sad because I know that we are a better match but because we have nothing together, as in we don’t have a house, kids, pets or a marriage certificate, I am the one that gets the raw end of the deal. He says goodbye for the afternoon, “I’m heading off line, I loved hanging with you today and love you.” OMG that’s the first time in I don’t know how long that he said it first & I try to not overthink that he didn’t say ‘I’, just ‘love you’ – maybe it means nothing to him, but it’s something to me…
Because I think that walks are something that he & his wife don’t do, I look for a walking trail of Geocaches that we could do, I send him a few suggestions of geocaches that are in a line or area where you can walk so we can do them on our next date. It’s free & I need to exercise so I think these dates are better than dinner & a movie. He says that he loves that I am planning our next date… Well I want them, maybe more than he does…
When he comes back online that evening, I ask him, “Do you want to know my favourite part of today? Which you’ll be like ‘weirdo’” He knows it’s going to be something lame, but I tell him “Well when I took the photo of us – you grabbed my waist so tight… Then we changed to not be in the sun & you grabbed it again.” He is surprised that I love him grabbing me close, “Haha that is kinda cute. Why did you like that” which I tell him, “Cos it showed me that you actually wanted a photo, that you cared about me… Not just leaning in… You literally held me close.” I thought that he was just appeasing me but he says that he wanted the photo with me.
He says to me “How sad am I that I’m really enjoying researching and putting this Pizza post together.” But I am playing on his Gameboy & playing Mission Impossible that I say who is sadder but he loves that I am playing with his Gameboy. He signs off again for the evening & I am awake thinking about our school girl fantasy, that I buy a police woman costume from shein & I plan to be dressed in it one day, asking if he was speeding, to which I’ll have to arrest him. I love these little fantasies & the best part about it too, is he will love it, not make me feel self conscious, he won’t laugh, but his eyes will pop out his head & he will love being my prisoner for a very sexy session. I cannot wait for it…
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