Diagnosis #2

This diagnosis is a little but more controversial for me, because as soon as I say I have seen Psychiatrist & I have this diagnosis, whoever you tell says “oh yeah, I have that” which isn’t helpful & unless you have a proper diagnosis from a psychiatrist, then you probably shouldn’t say anything.

I have ADHD & GAD, which is attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder & generalized anxiety disorder. I am normally a little against people getting diagnosed – especially kids because I have seen them ‘become’ their diagnosis or using their diagnosis as to get out of doing school work etc (I work with school kids) & milk it.

At first I didn’t even want to be referred to the Psychiatrist to be honest, I didn’t want to know what my GP suspected & I honestly didn’t think it was me at all… I am not hyper! I have a million thoughts per minute & I am always doing something, when I sit still, I overthink so I try to keep busy, but I’m not hyper. I have a good attention span, I get things done… But…

…I dominate conversations, I talk super fast & loud so people hear me, I will talk over the top of people when they aren’t getting to the point, I procrastinate about finishing tasks after I start them, I worry about everything & overthink to the point I don’t sleep, I am obsessive over food, weight etc & organisation (to the point I thought it was OCD not ADHD/GAD) but yet I am so disorganised also… I make impulsive decisions – which usually turn out ok, but I decide to renovate, I do it. I make it work. I decode to travel, I make it work. I decide to switch jobs, I make it work… But then I stress about getting everything done & end up getting help (from some amazing friends).

So what does this diagnosis mean at 42 years of age? Well I was reluctant to bother medicating or even doing any therapy regarding the ADHD/GAD. I mean I don’t have a life where I can’t hold down or job or pay bills, I am still a smart woman who get through life – but who wants to just “get though life” could I be getting through life better?

My lash lady is medicated for OCD & she says that it changed her life for the better.

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