T-Bone

T-bone was around on the chat app from the very beginning. I actually always thought he was a chick because of his profile pic was of a pair of sunnies – everyone thought this, I never ever saw pictures of him. Everyone was always excited about him but he is so young that he doesn’t interest me – I am into Noodle from the very start of being in the chat groups. When I first saw a pic of T-bone, I see how skinny & lanky he is that I definitely am not interested & thought he’d never be interested in me anyway – being I’m a normal human sized chick, according to Noodle a perfect Marilyn Monroe body (I wish!). T-bone & I chat a little – never in private message, it is always in the group & we have good banter but there is nothing there for me. I have Noodle to occupy my time! I didn’t need this boy.

T-bone disappeared for ages, like months on the chat app! He is still in all the groups but no one knows what happened to him. I didn’t think much of it because people come & go so quickly, especially married guys when their partner finds out about them being on there (I’m waiting for the day Noodle ghosts me when she finds out!). But T-bone reappeared in a group & started chatting to me a lot. We finally start chatting in PM too. I don’t think much of it when he gets flirty, I was flirty back but was clear that I was seeing someone, he was also clear that he was seeing someone too, so I am not sure why he is back online. Why did I tell him I was seeing someone? I mean I can see other people, aren’t I still single? What the hell does that mean? Why would I say that…?! Everyone on the chat app are already suspicious of Noodle & I, why would I tell him that I am seeing someone.

One of the groups is planning a ‘meet up’ it is a group that I own so I am part of the planning. I had tried to get Noodle to attend this event. I even thought Noodle could drive into the city, he didn’t have to drink heaps. But he said he couldn’t come & he blamed work the next day, however, I’m pretty sure that he was worried about what his partner would say & also I’m not 100% sure how Noodle would go in a social situation anyway.

I’d been telling Noodle about this event, of course desperate for him to come along & had developed an alibi for him, but he refused to use it… He’d worked at so many stores recently, he could pretend he made friends with someone & that there were drinks in the city for someones birthday. Not entirely a lie… I really wanted Noodle there, I was dying for him to come out with me at some point, I know he wanted too, but he was cautious of using any alibi.

I was supposed to meet the other admin at the pub first then everyone was going to meet us later. But she bailed when I was already in the city, I had nothing to do but wait, so I go to the pub & start drinking. I end up becoming really good friends with one of the chicks from the group, the one that rocked up first. Everyone rocks up & we drink some more. We have the most annoying dude there talking about how many strippers he knows & that he could get us into club x. So somehow we end up there, I am so drunk when we walk in but apparently there are cheap shots. Yeah what a good idea!TBone Marilyn MonroeSo, I’m also messaging T-bone, stupidly but as I’m standing at the bar, T-bone messages & says he’s also there, he comes in, he looks straight at me & walks over to me, not saying hello to anyone else, even though he probably knows them too. He buys some shooters to catch up which he gives me some. I am not good with shots & am drunk anyway, but I have a few at the strip club.

The annoying guy asks us all to put in money for a stripper to do a group thing, I say no, I’m not bi, I’m not even sure why I am here to be honest, most of the other chicks are bi so they are happy to put in but I say no. Not really sure what happens because we don’t get a table dance & we leave for the Woolshed (A night club in Adelaide that has been around forever however used to be really shit when I was younger but has turned into a cool place to go despite the decor never having changed in the 20 years it’s been open!)

At the Woolshed, I have a few more drinks, as if I need them! Why are people letting me drink!? Why aren’t I more restrained?! Jesus… This is not going to end well… What is wrong with me… I apparently punch the annoying guy in the nuts (WTF??) which everyone thinks was on purpose, but I am not a violent person & I don’t remember it, so who the hell knows what happened. I don’t think I would’ve just done it on purpose, someone said I was just swinging my arms around but who the fuck knows what happened!

Next minute, T-Bone is holding me up while I stumble around like a drunken teenager. Jesus… I’m not sure how it happens, if I kiss him or if he kisses me, but we kiss. For a while. I don’t think about what I am doing, how upset Noodle will be because he is so jealous of T-Bone because according to Noodle all the girls cream themselves over him. Noodle never believed me that I wasn’t into him & I’m not, I mean, he’s cute, but he’s like 10 years younger & super skinny. I like a man, plus this guy also has a girlfriend… Or so he says…

It’s time to go home, I briefly get a moment of clarity before I ask him to go home with me… Thank god I don’t ask him that! I mean, I can barely stand up. He & Sweetie (Max’s wife) get me in to the taxi. Luckily we drop him home, I kiss him goodbye & as the car takes off, I need to spew. I’m leaning out the door, Poor Sweetie gets an eye full of my ass hanging out the door as I chuck.

I wake up feeling like shit, not only in because I have drunk my weight in alcohol, but because I kissed another man…

I chat to T-Bone constantly the next day & for a few days later, but then he disappears again. Another chick said she was still chatting to him on snapchat, but I just try to wipe that from my memory. At least one thing I realised from that was how much I like Noodle, how much I didn’t want to hurt him, even though I am allowed to see other people. I really don’t want too.

I never told Noodle I was even chatting to T-Bone, let alone that I kiss him because I knew that he would be so jealous. I don’t feel guilty for doing it, I’m single, I can do whatever I want but I do feel guilty for not telling him. I’m always so scared someone is going to say something in the groups that they saw me kissing him, but no one ever did. Yet!? Phew!

#IBD4U

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Noodle #31

I try on the sexy nurse outfit & it does actually fit me, but I feel fat in it… (Yep, major self esteem issues, I know!) But I know Noodle won’t care or see the imperfections that I see, he’ll just see his sexy mistress in the costume he bought her & will love it so I need to just be confident when I wear it for him… Apparently I’m sexier when I am confident. However I am faking it most of the time until I see his eyes pop out of his head like Roger Rabbit! I decide to buy a red stethoscope & some white fishnet tights with some really high red heels to top off the sexy nurse look. I buy everything online so pretty much this gift probably ended up costing me more money than him. Hahaha, but at least I will have a whole cute outfit & I can do the sexy nurse thing for him at some point. It’s a bit exciting for me, I’ve never done anything like that before. I know that he thinks I’m this sexually advanced person & I’ve done everything, but there are things I haven’t done before, mainly because I haven’t had a lasting thing before & I refuse to do something this sexy for a douche dude who turns out to be a one night stand.

In my holidays, it’s the same time that my gym closes down for 2 weeks being it’s a small independent gym with only one instructor. I decide that I will join Noodles gym & then we can maybe gym together but also when I travel for work, I can use the regional gyms too, since I do no exercise while I’m away for work usually. It might be insane, but now I have 2 gym memberships & one is pretty much so I can see Noodle. I do want to work out with him. I did always imagine him coming with me to my gym & working out together. However, I know he’ll never come there.

It’s New Year’s Eve. Soon it will be 2018 (Yes I am behind still… Trying to catch up!). This means it’s been about 8 months since we started seeing each other weekly… I really want to see Noodle tonight, this is basically the longest relationship I’ve ever had besides Boyfriend. But of course seeing Noodle tonight would be seemingly impossible, until he tells me that he is staying in with a cheese platter & then will probably just go to the gym & my ears prick up. I am having a relatively quiet one at my sisters with a few friends & my parents. It’s also about 15 minutes closer to his house & therefore also closer to his gym, if he goes to the gym, he could actually come see me for a quick fuck in the backstreets near my sisters house & we could celebrate the new year a little together… I talk to my sister to get a cover story for why I might disappear for a little bit. I have to explain to her why, she’s not entirely happy but she knows the whole story anyway & says that she will cover for me. I am excited, not drinking a lot, thinking I may have to drive somewhere with him, waiting for Noodle to come back online to tell me he’s going to the gym, but my excitement is short lived, he never comes back online to say he’s gone to the gym. But at 1 minute past midnight he messages me Happy New Year & I reply quickly with a little xxx at the end. My signature xoxo is just 3 x. I wish like hell that I was with Noodle this night, kissing him into the new year… FUCK.

Noodle tells me that I’m too distracting since we were up until almost 2:00 am chatting online “We somehow chat for hours” I tell him that we can stop but he tells me that he’d just ghost me if he wanted to stop. “You ghost me & I’ll rock up at your house & ask where you are… Oh no I won’t cos I’m not a fucking skitzo he knows me too tell “Hahaha, No you wouldn’t. But fuck I must trust you. I never thought I’d ever cheat in my own house, kinda hot to know that I have.” I still can’t believe that we did that… I mean I was worried I wouldn’t be able to cum because I was too scared she would come home, I didn’t think I would be able to let go & cum, but obviously I did…

Later in the week I am watching porn, I watch porn sporadically, I don’t watch it all the time but this time I am watching a specific type of porn for research purposes & I curse myself when I tell Noodle that I am watching porn because he asks what type, to send him the link so he can watch too but I refuse to tell him “So tell meeeee” I can picture him actually saying that to me, I tell him that it’s embarrassing but he says “We have an open & honest sexual friendship” the word friendship hits me like a ton of bricks… I try not to dwell on it, I guess that we do have a friendship, he has become a best friend, but what else would you call this I guess but I am sad he didn’t say relationship. I tell him that I am watching 3sums & he says that he’s not surprised.

Noodle isn’t ever online during the day when they’re at home together, so when I get a message at 5:30 pm one evening saying “How’s ya day been sexy mistress” I think what the fuck? “Not too bad… Why are you online naughty Sir. Can’t keep away from me?” I know he will deny this, but clearly he can’t. “You know I always have trouble staying away from you” & I smile because this response surprise me. Awwww. Cute Noo Noo but he makes me laugh by saying “Pfft. Only cos I wanna fuck you all the time!”

Noodle also finally admits to me “When you posted a photobomb I did everything in my power to see it” Which just makes me smile more! Fuck this guy… I ask him if he wants me to turn him on & he says “Well you turn me on 1000000000000000000000000000000 times a day!” with a winky smiley face. So I go bend over the washing machine in just my panties, taking a picture for him & ask him if this is how he wants me. He replies “OMG #IBD4U. Fuck you.” Almost instantly, I get a picture of his hard cock in stripped underwear. I smile at them, thinking that I have only ever seen him in black boxers, so I wonder if he is like me & is always putting on nice underwear before seeing me? He actually tells me not to look at his stripped underwear too! This makes me smile more!

I remind Noodle that he is always the one that kisses me goodbye when we leave each other, especially when I see him in my car You confused girl I laugh, I know I am not “You lean in as you get out the car” he replies “Err, I might fuck you like a whore but don’t want to just get up leave you like a whore. Figure I should be kinda nice to you when I leave” He can be very sweet sometimes, I tell him this so he replies “I mean fuck. Ignore that” & I laugh out loud. I knew he would say that! I also find out around this time that Noodle has a Fetlife account. Fetlife is basically a kinky Facebook – for those who don’t know, it has kink events & its a great place to network with other kinky people. I’ve been on there a while but don’t use it a lot since there is no app for it, you have to log into the web page all the time. Ages ago a lot of us in the chat group exchanged details & those that weren’t on it made an account & we all became friends. When I find out that he’s had an account for over 2 years but hasn’t done anything on it at all, nor does he have any friends, I stalk him… Well not stalk – that’s a harsh word hahaha, lightly investigate his account & find him easily. A lot easier than I thought I would but I used his chat app user name & bingo. I refuse to add him or tell him that I found him on there but I tell him to add me, which to my surprise he does. He asks me why I want to be friends with him on there & it’s because it’s basically the only social media that she isn’t on that he can be friends with me. Cheeky kinky friends & she’ll never know… I also think that in case the chat app dies or we lose contact, somehow, this is another way for us to chat to each other! I know this is dumb, but I am secretly loving this new connection with him… He once wanted to add me on Spotify but you have to connect to your Facebook which would mean she would see me. She apparently goes through his friends regularly & questions who people are when he adds new people… Like really? Who wants to live like that? I think about trying to find him on Facebook all the time, but I never do. I’d rather not know anything besides what he tells me. Finding him on Fetlife is the first time I’ve ever tried to find him or any guy I’ve ever been with.

However it’s about this time that I finally find out Noodle’s last name as we do also talk about Facebook. He tells me that he’s looked me up & I say that I haven’t even looked him up which is true. He challenges me because he thinks I won’t be able to find him, but I find him within a few minutes & that’s how I find out his last name & I send him a screenshot of his profile. Most of his profile is private, just like mine, which he tells me annoys him. But like I say to him, my Facebook won’t really give him any information that I wouldn’t tell him if he asked anyway. I do tell him to add me on Facebook & just tell his partner that I am someone from one of the other stores or a sales rep (Which is what I always tell people that I am) but he doesn’t. Probably for the best to be honest. However I think I am at a point where it’s about time she found out. I do think a lot about going to her work & confronting her or leaving a note on her car, going to their house when I know he’s at work, leaving a letter in her letterbox or talking to her. Of course, I am never going to do this, I sometimes wish I was that nuts & could do that, however if I did any of that, I would lose him regardless. I wonder sometimes though, if I was a little bit more nuts or needy or less independent, would I have a boyfriend? A proper bona fide boyfriend? Or was this always my destiny regardless? Leading me here so I could be a real life Carrie Bradshaw? Hahaha.

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I guess I do get a little needy & need reassurance from Noodle, about as much as he needs it from me sometimes. I tell him he shouldn’t just be having an affair with one woman, that he should be fucking other people, mainly because I can’t end this & hope that he will because this is the most fucked up situation I’ve ever been in. Don’t at all think because I am writing this blog, that I am proud of this situation! But also because of how under the thumb he is too, it would be much harder for her to find one night stands, but it’s going to be easy to find me. What is worse, by the way? Fucking a few random women once or twice then never seeing her again or fucking the same women every week for months? I definitely think the latter, especially now I am developing some sort of feelings for this guy. But he tells me “When the chick I fuck gives me the hottest sex? Makes me hard all day? Is basically a porno star & dirty bitch that lets me do anything I want? That’s pretty much a walking fantasy? Why would I want to fuck others? Most women are all talk on here…” Well I must say I have to agree with him, I have ended up in this position because of how well he fucks me, how much effort he puts in with me, no other man has ever made me feel this way, that I have given up everything else to pursue this, no matter what it is.

#IBD4U

Noodle #30

I am not sure how Noodle & I keep getting hotter. I know it’s not been that long that we’ve been fucking but surely we will start repeating moves soon & start being boring? Honestly that’s my biggest fear, being boring sexually. I have talked to a lot of married or partnered men over the years & heard all the stories from them about how I wouldn’t understand or that it’s complicated or that she doesn’t want to fuck them anymore. Well, I think that if they put in as much effort as they do trying to get me to fuck them into their wife, then she might actually fuck them. Like dude if you messaged her telling her she is sexy or you miss her or even just cook dinner or bring her flowers for no reason, then she might actually want to fuck you? Maybe she won’t but my point is they need to put in the same effort with their partner as they do trolling online for a random fuck.

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Noodle & I talk about a 3sum, it’s one thing he really wants (what a fucking surprise, right?!) but I want to organise this for him so I think about the only woman that I would potentially do this & one I know that wants to fuck Noodle but wouldn’t steal him from me (OMG!) I suggest Sweetie (Max’s wife) to him. I say that she probably would do it as she’s bi & has shown interest in me before & she’s also asked me if Noodle would fuck her. I feel comfortable with her as I’ve had a 3sum with her before with her husband obviously. But also because I am not threatened by her looks – she’s cute, but I know Noodle is into me. I know Noodle has tried to chat with her in the past but said he felt it didn’t flow that well, so I knew that he probably wouldn’t chat to her outside of the 3sum. I tell Noodle that she would do it if I asked her & that it wouldn’t be that hard to work out logistically. “Well I wouldn’t say no. Just thought it might be weird considering you’ve done it with her own husband. & you were basically seeing him once upon a time. & she really likes you too.” I tell him that I am not worried about the 3sum as much but more about what will happen afterwards, like will he realise he likes her better? I have only ever been the guest star, this time I will be the part of the couple & Sweetie will be the guest star. I don’t think Noodle is even listening to me anymore since I mentioned it “Love the idea of fucking 2 women. It’s like the top of my sexual bucket list. Haha.” I tell him that I’ll float the idea with her & let him know what she says. “You do like pleasing me sexually don’t you?” I tell him yes but I add “Better kiss me more asshole or I’ll cut your cock off” & I send a poking tongue out emoji to back it up, he says “I’m keen. You are hotter than her, You know you’ll be my favourite.” Hehehe, he knows just want to say & sends the kissing cheek emoji. I tell him that I’ll screenshot that & send him the heart eye emoji. He says that he doesn’t know what he does to make women want to fuck him, because I remind him that Sweetie did ask me a while ago if I knew if Noodle would fuck her, but I asked her not to pursue him because I wanted him. Ironically I was fucking her husband, so I’m surprised she respected that to be honest. I tell him “Eh you’re good looking, honest & active in the groups, flirty… & if they knew how well you fuck me, why wouldn’t they want to fuck you?” I don’t want him to start thinking about other women to be honest. I mean right now he’s barely got time to see me, imagine if he had other women in the mix? Would I be in this mess? Also reminds me that I should be fucking other men, but for some fucked up reason, I am not & he is not fucking anyone else.

So Noodle comes to see me at my house a few days later, on our regular Tuesday, our visits are a lot quicker with the longer commute he has than I would like, we need to start thinking about what we can do to extend the time we have together. It’s only a week before Christmas so his work is really busy, work for me is finally calm & I’m about to go on Christmas shut down leave. This is the first job I’ve ever had that has Christmas shut down leave so I am excited to take it. Last year I worked doing the skeleton crew but this year I’m taking it off. I mean partly because I need time off but partly because I want to see Noodle more. I will need to make some effort to see him at his work. When he gets to my house, I am in underwear, nothing sexy just my usual lace panties & plain bra & he’s pushing me backwards against the wall when we hit with a thud, kissing with abandon. He fingers me till I’m cumming against his hand barely, able to stand, before he starts moving me to walk backwards while kissing him down the hallway. Halfway down, is my toilet, Noodle turns me to spin us around & he walks backwards in there, putting the lid down & sitting down, OMG. We’re going to fuck in this room too, I straddle his lap & fuck him, bouncing up & down on his cock. He said before that he doesn’t cum when I ride him so once I’ve cum, he stands us up & takes me to the bedroom to fuck me. I cum again (what a surprise) & he cums too before he has to leave heading back to work to change over his location. Well that’s every room on the house!

Later that night I start a serious conversation “We have to have a serious chat though Noodle…!” I can tell he’s freaking out “Err, serious?” I am smiling knowing what is going through his head “Yeah! The Noodle vs #IBD4U agreement 2017 is about to expire. I nominate #IBD4U to negotiate on my behalf to extend this agreement. Who will be your representative. We should commence negotiations ASAP to ensure continuity” he laughs but says that the agreement should be cancelled. I tell him that he can’t cancel it but what would he want in the next agreement, he doesn’t know so asks me what I want to which I reply:

  1. Maintain all current conditions
  2. Noodle to communicate better
  3. Get fucked more & harder

He says that he agrees to those conditions but after some thought he says that he has 2 to add:

  1. #IBD4U is to not freak out & stay up all night if Noodle has a busy day at work or busy week
  2. Noodle to receive weekly blowjobs

I tell him that number 1 is a non-issue if he adheres to number 2 of my list. But I tell him that I will draft a clause for his number 2. “#IBD4U will give Noodle a weekly blowjob/headjob/suck his cock. Failure to give Noodle a Blowjob/headjob/suck his cock will result in a spank unless it is beyond #IBD4U control, such as Noodle is SO busy” He says that’s not a punishment, which it probably isn’t since I like it, be we agree & say that we should sign it in our cum! He tells me later how freaked out he was about the we need to talk comment! Hahaha, that was my plan!

We don’t see each other over Christmas, but we talk every day as usual. They are both off together during the public holidays so I don’t get to chat a lot when she’s awake, obviously but he makes time to chat to me & I find myself waking up earlier to make sure we get some quality chat time. We don’t exchange gifts, I have spent time thinking about the perfect gift for him. I had just been to Sydney for a concert with a friend & while there I did some shopping & bought the sexiest cutest lingerie. It’s black & lacy with a lot of gold sequins on it, sounds tacky, but it’s not. I have also bought Noodle his regular deodorant aftershave, Listerine mouth wash (he uses it every time he comes over,) chocolate body paint & since I’ve been baking a gingerbread cookie Christmas tree, I made some extra cookies & bagged it up with a fancy bow to give it all to him. I figure that it’s stuff he can either leave at my house or he can put in his gym back as stuff he uses. I hope that whatever he’s bought me, it’s an equivalent gift or I’m going to feel stupid as fuck! Assuming he hasn’t spent to much on me because it would raise suspicion, I’m thinking no more than $50. While I’ve spent a lot on the lingerie, it’s ok because I’m not giving it to him as such, but I’m going to be wearing it.

I had worked out what aftershave/deodorant that he wears, one night after we’ve fucked, I still smell like him & I am being honest when I tell him this. He tells me that he just wears Rexona ice cool but he changes it a lot. He tells me that “A guy can’t tell if you’re wearing $29 perfume or $200 perfume” Well fuck, I wear Chanel Chance, it’s super expensive but I wear it because I like it. It’s now my signature smell. But I didn’t even know this, what is the fucking point! Men don’t know?!
As soon as he’s back at work after Christmas, I meet him for lunch. I am dressed in a short summer dress with no panties, ready to fuck him easily as I know he won’t have a lot of time because the shops have been shut for 2 days, you know people act like the world has ended. I’m honestly surprised he is making the time today to see me. As he gets in my car, he says “Fuck” I looked around trying to see if I can see someone that looks like his partner, but of course she’d be at work too, being she works for the same retail chain. I ask what he said fuck for when he points at a dude wearing a Christmas shirt & says that the area manager, walking into the store. I am fucking disappointed & dreading the answer as I say “Do you need to go back in?” but he says no, however I know he’s distracted about this. We drive to our usual spot & fuck in the car for an hour before I drop him back to work. He chats to me as soon as he’s back but because the area manager is in his store it’s not straight away as usual. But he tells me that the manager said he saw us & asked Noodle if he’s behaving. I reply “What?! What did you say?” He says that he just said “always” , with a smile. FUCK! Shit fuck damn!

This doesn’t change anything like I think it will, Noodle really surprises me sometimes! The next Tuesday night I tell him that I am finally going to give him his Christmas present. I skip the gym to get ready in the lingerie complete with stockings & high heels, I cover up with a white satin dressing gown then stand next to the gift I have for him to take. He walks in the door & sees me stand in the lounge room & askes me “what do we have here?” I ask him which present he wants to open first, he doesn’t really respond as he pulls on the tie of the satin dressing gown as it falls open like the scene from titanic when Rose is naked under her gown, I think I couldn’t have planned that any better if I tried. Noodle sucks in his breath as he sees my lingerie & I see his eyes do that look that kind of look like they’re popping out of this head. We don’t get to look at the rest of his gift before he is kissing me, taking the dressing gown off me completely. He pushes me backwards to the pool table & helps me up where he goes down on me till I cum. This is not how I planned this to go, I wanted to please him, but I am loving this & I know that he likes going down on me, having told me before that I taste really good, compared to some women, he’s never really liked doing it before. We fuck on the pool table & he never takes off the lingerie telling me how hot I look. After we’re done he opens the rest of the present & says it’s like a cheating mans pack. Well that’s kind of what I was going for. He tells me later too that he likes my cookie. He pretty much ate it the second he left my house. He goes outside to get my present out of the car – he’d hidden in in the spare wheel arch so she couldn’t find it… She’s gone through his car before & when she found his hair stuff in the glove box, she told he was dodgy as fuck… Anyway, my gift isn’t wrapped, but he kind of shoves a thin box with some thing on top at me. It’s a nurses costume & a vibrating cock ring. He’s such a guy that he’s not even taken off the price tags. I love this gift, but the first thing that goes through my head is if it will even fit me! Why can’t I ever just enjoy a fucking moment without ruining it with bullshit thoughts?

#IBD4U

Noodle #29

I ask Noodle if he’d actually be able to fuck me in the mornings after one of our evening sessions, he says that he’d be capable but would struggle “At one point when my partner was trying for a baby I was getting sex every day between you & her. I did alright haha. My sex drive isn’t what is used to be. I don’t masturbate every morning when I get up & every night before I go to bed like I use too tho. I’m sure if you sucked it, I could keep up” I am still paranoid that we have boring couple sex now “Guess it wouldn’t always be boring couple sex with me so you might want it more… Or if you got home from work one day thinking it’s just a normal night & there I am in lingerie” Then he says it… His words are meant as a compliment but then hit me like 1000 knives being thrown at me “One day you’ll make a man a fucking awesome wife haha” What the actual fuck Noodle! & why when he said it, do I automatically wish he was the husband that is so lucky to have me? I am silent for a while I compose myself. I have never really thought about being married before, so where did this fucking though come from? Even with Boyfriend, we bought a house but I never envisaged marrying him! “I have this feeling we’ll lose contact one day but then in our 40’s or 50’s one of us won’t be so stubborn to contact the other just to see what’s happening… And we’ll start fucking again.” I do think that as much as I am getting some sort of feelings so this guy, this isn’t our time. I don’t feel like they will break up & if they do, he won’t be able to date me seriously… If I really feel this why, what am I do? Why am I giving this guy the best of me?

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I try to lighten the mood by telling him off for giving me a hickey, he says he didn’t even kiss my neck, but only remembers me sucking his cock. Well of course he’d day that, but he did bite my neck & I bruise so easily. He tells me that I should be a good little mistress & suck his cock weekly, I say “You get emotional when you don’t get a weekly BJ.” He replies “My slutty mistress should be sucking my cock once a week. She’s a good girl & gets out of bed & drives all the way to see me & suck my cock good then swallows all my cum” I tell him that I can’t let him get bored of me & he says “Oh I’m no where no bored of you. Just wanna fuck you more lately” Well at least now I know he does want me! Hahaha.

Noodle tells me that he has holidays coming up again for his brothers wedding & it will also be his birthday. Wow, I didn’t even think about his birthday to be honest. I am excited to try & see him on his birthday for a good cock sucking & some hot sex, probably in the car being his birthday is on a Sunday, but I’m hoping he can go to the gym & I can go meet him. It’s also about this time that Noodle tells me he’s going to buy me a Christmas present… WHAT THE ACTUAL FACTUAL FUCK! Does this mean I have to get him something? What the fuck can I buy him? I mean I’d love to see him in some Calvin Klein boxer briefs or smelling amazing in some Jean Paul Gaultier but how the fuck would he explain that to his partner… I need to think of something that he doesn’t have to take home… What the hell could I buy him? Shit… I hate the pressure of buying presents… Why is he buying me a gift? How much is he going to spend? I’m assuming it’ll be some sort of sex toy maybe, what the fuck will he buy me? SHIT.

The next Tuesday night, I go to the gym as I haven’t heard from him when he messages “Did you not go to the gym tonight?” I reply “Yeah was at the gym” I assume he’s going to bail “Out of work late. Heading to yours now.” I say that I’m almost home anyway when I get his reply “I want you to be naked & tied up by the time I get there. Ready for a hard quick fuck like a good little slut” Jesus I get wet as fuck from that. I reply “Yes Sir” & start freaking out… How will he want me tied, front or back? I don’t want to mess this up, I don’t want to disappoint him either! I highly doubt that he’ll ever be disappointed but you know what I mean.

Noodle gets to my house, I have tied myself to the x restraints by my ankles & have left my arms out for him to tie up, he walks in making a lot of noise & is in my bedroom making that manly sound that I know I have pleased him. He’s naked then kisses all up my body, clipping my hands in when he slides in from behind me, so wet already, this is just insane, but I know he doesn’t have a lot of time. He does exactly what he say, fucks me hard like a good little slut then has to go. Even though I loved it & he messaged me straight afterwards, I felt a little used & disappointed. But his messages seem to pick up on my mood & he spends a lot more time talking to me when he gets home, it’s not really sexy talk, just about shit of the day. Stuff we usually get time to talk about on a Tuesday night afterwards but tonight we missed out on it.

Chatting though Noodle & I start to argue about me flirting online with some douche in the group, probably Holden to be honest “No you single him out & flirted with him. As the loser dude fucking you with a crush on you, I notice these things” OMG he has a crush on me? Hahaha… that’s so cute but fuck I am not flirting to make him jealous! “Hahaha, you are a major loser, but that makes me smile!” I can’t help but laugh at that. We’re in this so deep & he is jealous of me flirting – like honestly! “You can’t talk you got so jealous of my flirting with Destiny” Yeah he’s right, I did get jealous of him flirting with her, she was a southerner too & everyone was really into her, I thought he had gone there already by the way they talked. I have already admitted I was jealous of her & hated her just because she was chatting to him, she was probably a lovely person, but I will never know. “I never said I didn’t. I admitted that. So fuck you” Hahaha. “Eh & I like it some sort of fucked up way” Yeah I bet he did, made him feel good that I actually care about him. “Yeah I’m a jealous creature. Especially when you don’t have unlimited spare time.. & I’m not ready to end this, I don’t want you to either.” I think that surprises him “So you don’t want to make me jealous either?” Of course I don’t. “I don’t want to make you jealous… I kinda like it when you do get jealous but I don’t do things to make you jealous.” He agrees & says he doesn’t do things deliberately to make me jealous either, but like when I do get jealous…. I wonder “It really surprises me how we got this far sometimes. Hahaha” We’re both so needy! He says it’s the mind blowing sex, which probably helped a lot!

The next morning Noodle says good morning as usual, then sends me a screenshot of some text messages with his partner. I’m not sure why or what the point is, I don’t want to look, but it’s like a train wreck, I can’t look away. I read it, of course, her message is at 8:00 am

“Y did you leave so early”

“Went to the gym, why?”

“R u sure ur not cheating, cos it will kill me if u r. If you don’t love me just tell me”

“OMG I went to the gym loser”

“Don’t call me a loser” then he sends her a screenshot of his gym application where it shows that he was actually at the gym! WOW… Just wow – fuck he’s lucky he was actually at the gym this morning & what the fuck is the issue now? He’s been getting up way earlier to fuck me sometimes, even being at my house at 5:30 am & she’s worried about him leaving to be at the gym at 7:00 am now. Maybe my paranoia about the having a lot of sex was right & he pulled away from me & now they’re not fucking as much, he’s putting in more effort with me that he’s pulling away from her? & we seem to have these weird eye contact moments now while having sex & cum together… I wonder if this will make Noodle back off again, being that he back off because he was busy but every time something happens with her, it doesn’t seem to make him back off, yet he says he does…

Clearly not because the next morning Noodle & I both have the day off & we’ve planned to spend most of the day together. I have something planned, when I bought my new first set of sexy lingerie, I bought a couple of things, so today, I am wearing the other set I bought & a slut choker that I bought for him. I send him a picture of the bra only it before he gets here & he tells me that he’s hard already. It makes me smile that a simple message from him telling me he’s hard for me when he is on his way, we’re really simple creatures.

He rocks up & I’m at the door waiting for him again, in lingerie & a face full of makeup, hair done nicely & with the choker on… As he walks towards me, he can see it but doesn’t realise what it is, until he touches it & I quiver, he smiles saying the word slut as he reads it on my choker. Asking me if I am his slut. I say yes. (This is seriously sounding like some lame mils & boons book!) & he’s naked rapidly taking me into the bedroom to fuck me for hours while he videos everything, mainly his cock going in & out of me, which I must say, I oddly like… I mean I don’t get to watch the angle he does obviously, so it’s good to see it. Lots of guys look at their cock while fucking you & now I get to see this angle too… I love it. He makes me cum multiple times before I ask him to fuck my tits. I know this turns him on & he always asks me what I get out of it. Well first of all, I have cum several times & as most women, I get very sensitive. I know he wants to keep fucking me but I sometimes get to a point I don’t think I can take anymore. So I’ll ask him to fuck something else, my mouth, ass or tits. I also like his cum on me, I sometimes don’t shower & sleep covered in it because he loves when I tell him I’m still covered in our cum. But also I love how turned on he gets when I ask him to fuck something else & he especially loves fucking my tits… I get turned on by how turned on he is. I mean I get really wet sucking his cock, which has never happened to me before & I don’t think it’s happened for him before either, because he always comments on how wet I get. Well maybe it’s because I’m so turned on. I remember a time when Noodle told me a women could get too wet & then there’s no friction for him. Well apparently I have proven that theory wrong, because now he tells me that there is no such thing as too wet, but he also tells me it’s probably because I’m so tight (yeah sorry, TMI to all my friends reading! Hahaha…) I’ve been told that by a few guys, so assuming it’s the no kids thing perhaps, I have no idea!

After he fucks my tits, I tie Noodle to the bed on my x restraints & tease him for a change. I like being a little dominant myself sometimes, I like to get a vibe out while he can’t touch me & make myself cum over & over while straddling him but not letting his cock inside me. It’s fucking tough, I mean I want his cock in me as much as he’s begging for it, but I don’t. I say “How you going there Champ” & giggle, kissing him a little, but he tries to pull away & says “Fuck you” I tell him that this is how he makes me feel when he ties me up & teases me. He looks me straight in the eye & says in the deep dominant voice that I usually obey “Just Fuck Me #IBD4U” I giggle & make myself cum again with a vibe on his lap before slowly sliding myself down his really hard cock. He moans says “Thank fuck for that” but I untie him so he can fuck me hard & deep, watching ourselves in the mirror. Fuck that’s really hot!

#IBD4U

Noodle #28

Noodle & I start thinking about this intruder fantasy. I had given this some thought with Max, but that fell through – as everything did with him… Everything Noodle & I say about this scenario turns me on, the fact he wants me to call him prick & struggle under his touch. The fact I want him to call me names too, him telling me that he’ll fuck me like a dirty little slut. I say “I want this. How fucked up is that?” He says it’s not fucked up, it’s hot & it turns him on a lot. I tell him that unless I say the safeword Red, I am fair game. So even if I keep saying no or get off me etc, in any sexual scenario with Noodle, I don’t actually mean for him to stop. He tells me that more I struggle, the more turned on he gets & he thinks that’s fucked up… Maybe we’re both as fucked up as each other? We’ve done kinky stuff before but not like this. I ask what he’d do if I hit him & he said it’d turn him on more & he’d spank me back… (Remember this is a intruder fantasy, not that he is beating me or this is a domestic violent situation.)

We elaborate on this fantasy & turn each other on so much, even though we fucked this morning, that we’re virtually playing again with each other, cumming with sexting. I remind him that I didn’t shower after we fucked & I wore his cum all day, I even went out covered in him. He tells me it was hot that I actually asked for it & made him cum a lot quicker, he couldn’t hold it in after I asked, looking him in the eye. He says “Fuck me #IBD4U, you are fucking sexy fucking thing. & so fucking hot sometimes!” I think this is the time to reveal another fantasy I have… “Would you consider something else I’m a bit scared/embarrassed to ask… (Scared cos I’ve never done it before either)” He tells me that he’s open to anything… “Will you maybe slip my panties off after you’ve pulled them against my clit so they’re a little wet” I haven’t told you this, but he does that a lot, pulling them up against my clit as his kisses me, rather than using his fingers sometimes, it’s hot as fuck – teasing me with my own lacy panties. “& then poke them in my mouth (not too far) If I make too much noise” He says “That’s hot… I fucking love it I ask if it’s weird but he says “How is that much different to fingering you then forcing my fingers in your mouth” Well I guess it’s not, but this is actual gagging. I haven’t been gagged before, I am conscious of my jaw issues. I ask him if he’s ever done this before & he says “No, but I’ve done a lot of things to you I’ve never done before. Like the first time I was fucking you & started biting your nipples hard & your cunt got super wet. I was like fuck… She likes that!” Yeah, I agree… It is hot as fuck!

During the day on Sunday when he has time for me, I ask Noodle if he still has pictures of me & some video because I’m concerned that his partner will find them & he tells me that “They’re in a secret app, behind a hidden code & she’ll never find them” because I’m fucked if she does find them, my face, my tattoos are on there, I wouldn’t be hard to identify & so I tell him not to underestimate a woman who thinks her partner is cheating on her. He tells me that he doesn’t & that’s why he backs off sometimes. Ahhhh this, is what has been going on!!! “Ah so you’re not really busy…!!” He’s just feeling guilty, “Nope, I have been busy, but don’t wanna get caught. If I felt guilty I wouldn’t still be fucking you, would I?” Oh fuck, is this guy really that insensitive to not feel guilty at all? “If you’re backing off, then just fucking tell me, so I’m not waiting around like a fuckwit thinking about it all night, not getting any fucking sleep. Betcha you don’t miss a minute of anything thinking about me… You know with your busy life & all.” Do I just say this shit so he’ll respond the way I want? But he does, without prompting, “I do miss chatting to you & fucking you as much as I did” I can’t help but be a little crazy & I apologise for that, trying to be the cool relaxed chick that is ok with being a Mistress mid affair…. I don’t want to be the possessive weirdo that he decides is too hard work!

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Lying in bed that night, I feel better about us – finally! He is at the gym at 10:30 pm on Sunday night. My family comes over my house for dinner but once they leave, I get into bed ready to chat the night away with Noodle, usually involving a vibrator & some sexy texts & pictures. Tonight, I have a vibe in, while we’re teasing each other & he says that he’s semi hard at the gym, that I should come visit him & fuck in the car… I am out of bed in clothes, quicker than I care to admit at this suggestion. He tells me to leave the vibe in & meet him in the carpark, which I do!

He’s all sweaty from working out (the dude could’ve showered in the 20 minute drive I just had to take) but I kind of like that he’s all manly & sweaty, I suck his cock first thing & yeah his balls are sweaty, so much so that the lint from his boxers keep getting in my mouth, but I try not to kill the mood by picking lint out of my mouth. I still have the vibe in but once Noodle has had enough of me sucking his cock, knowing I will make him cum if he lets me, that he pulls the vibe out of me dripping wet & puts it in my mouth. We make eye contact even though its dark, I can tell he wants that connection, I want to too & I make a hmmm sound as he groans, while I lick the vibe, he controls himself not to cum & saying “Fuck” out loud. He fucks me hard, making me cum, then I suck his cock till he cums, letting him cum on my tits but also in my mouth, I clean up his cock once we’re done… Fuck are we becoming predictable? I guess not, we just fucked in a gym carpark! Hahaha.

I’ve barely even driven out of the carpark when we’re done before Noodle is messaging me “Sucking my sweaty cock in the gym carpark like a dirty sexy fucking whore. HOT” I smile, knowing that he’s not as stubborn as I am! I barely ever message him first after sex anymore! Hahaha… SUCKER! Noodle tells me that he’s unlocked my sexiness & he’s glad that he has. “You give me such amazing sex tho. Best thing I’ve ever done sexually in my life was to fuck you haha”

The next Tuesday night, Noodle comes over but only for 45 minutes before he’s dashing off to go fix his location back at his store before he goes home. I wonder if this is part of the reason why he was pulling away from me too? He was realising that it’s too much effort? Having to drive back & forth? Or is getting more sex from her? He says it’s not guilt, but I wonder if he is he feeling guilty & denying it? I am never going to admit this to him, but I am liking him a lot more than I should, could he be feeling the same way & concerned about how close we are? I am putting a lot out of my mind about my feelings for Noodle, I wonder if he’s doing the same? Fuck those feelings!

The following Saturday afternoon I do my grocery shopping, while chatting to Noodle while he’s at work & I am mega pissed off that they don’t have my protein milk or cauliflower pizza base at the store I shop at, meaning I will have to go somewhere else. But when Noodle invites me to visit him at lunch, I don’t even worry about whatever the store I’m at does or doesn’t have, I get my groceries & dash home. I drive as quick as I can to pick him up, he leaves his phone in the store when he comes out to meet me. I see him walking towards my car & wonder what the fuck he has in his hands, he gets in the car & kind of throws a litre of protein milk & a pizza base at me (probably because he wanted to get it for me, but feels a bit weird about it – I would do that too, buy the present then feel like an idiot giving it to him.) I feel weird about accepting it but I cannot believe how much I love that he did that for me. That was so sweet, this guy is sweet… He pretends he’s not, but he really is! I can’t believe he went to the effort of getting me the right milk & base that I use. I mean we talk about food a lot so he knows what I buy & it’s stuff he buys too, so it’s not weird, but fuck that was cute as fuck to buy me groceries… OMG, I am swooning! Jesus, get a grip, it’s just a few groceries!

We drive around finding a new spot at a school, apparently he’s ok with a school during the day as there is no security, there isn’t sports on today so we’re able to have the whole carpark to ourselves. Noodle & I get into the backseat & we’re fucking quicker than I care to admit, I mean I know I say that all the time, but it’s almost like I can’t get his dick inside me quick enough. I suck his dick too, I mean I can’t resit sucking it, he doesn’t even have to ask or force my head down there (unless he’s being Mr Dom) I just willingly suck it & really love it. Noodle gets me so wet that when he turns he lays be down on the backseat he fucks me easily, when he pulls out & slides into my ass, I make sure he knows it’s my ass, not only so he can go slow, but so he can enjoy it. When I tell him, he makes this noise, I wish I could explain it but it’s like a groan but a moan of pleasure, like he’s trying not to cum because he’s just heard the sexiest thing ever. I like anal this way, when we’re face to face, being able to kiss & him touch my tits at the same time… This is broad daylight, on a Saturday afternoon in the car & we’re having anal sex like there is no tomorrow. When we both cum, Noodle sits in the backseat panting, I can barely move having cum a couple of times in less than an hour. I realise I have nothing to wipe us both down (Note to self, must get baby wipes for the car!) I find a serviette & clean up his cock, which I know he likes me doing for him, usually with my mouth, but I am not putting it back in my mouth after where it’s been. I do have some hard limits! (I know that might be hard for you readers to believe, but I definitely have some limits! Scat – shit- is one of them!)

Noodle & I have talked limits & pretty much we have the same limits, he says that he doesn’t like blood at all, obviously as a women, period sex doesn’t bother me, but he tells me that he gets really annoyed when his partner tells him her period is over but then when he fucks her he gets blood on his cock. But it’s more a fear he has I think, he hates injections & is a real wuss when it comes to getting them, once when he had to get one, his partner didn’t go with him but gave him so much shit about it, I offered to be there for him because, fuck it’s a fear not something to joke about… But we agree that shit is a limit for both of us too, I can deal with a little during anal, because lets face it’s part of it, but I’ve heard of kinks where people do like to be shit on etc… Definitely not for us!

#IBD4U

Noodle #27

It’s been a few hours when I finally look at Noodle’s reply “Sorry but I have to actually do work at work. I do try & fit you in as much as I can. I’ve got a lot going on at the moment. I have missed fucking you this week tho” Fucking hell, I hate when guys trivialise your feelings by saying how much they’ve got going on. At least he says that he’s missed fucking me! But let’s look at this – I am currently working full time in a job that requires a lot of extra hours, I gym 3 to 4 times a week, drive an hour to & from work every day, travel for work with overnight stays & to top it off, I am now doing fucking jury duty! “I’m sure you could’ve if you really wanted too… Oh but you don’t fuck me in the mornings anymore. Forgot about that!” Noodle plays the game & takes hours to write back to me. God he’s a fuckwit. “I do but been starting early for work, should be able to pull back on that now tho. & I can fake my location in the mornings now. Just gotta get up super early cos work so far away.” So something new Noodle has worked out a way to fake his location again. He’s using an old iPhone, that he used to use & hasn’t had the recent update which stopped him from being able to fake his location on his phone, so he uses the old one to fake his location. He then turns off his location on his phone, switches over to the old phone & fakes to location… Oh my fucking god, this is as lot of effort! This guy is going to realise, I’m not worth it soon… (Fuck I need to work on my self-esteem!) This guy should be going to this effort because I am worth it…. FUCK… hahaha…

Another interesting thing that’s recently happens is that Noodle has told his PT about me… It’s the first & only person Noodle has told his secret too, he seems comfortable with him, which is good & I wonder if they’re becoming friends so he can use him as an alibi in the future? However when he’s late home, because he’s talking to the PT (probably about me) she apparently calls & texts him to find out where he is. I couldn’t imagine living like that, constantly needing to know where my partner is. & it makes me wonder, is this normal? Anyway, I am secretly smug that Noodle has finally let it slip to someone he knows that he’s having an affair. He needs someone to talk to about this, I want him to talk to someone about this, because someone needs to knock some sense into us, either be together or end it…

The next Tuesday night that I see Noodle, I don’t have to pick him up because of the old iPhone faking his location. But he still only stays at my house an hour, telling me that he drives all the way back to his store to change his location back then drives home… What a waste of fucking time, time that he could be fucking me (if you got the double meaning there! Hahaha.) He showers at my house as its become his usual thing, he leave my house kissing me goodbye & then messages me later with all capitals FUCK.” I’m like what happened? He tells me that his partner asked why his hair was wet… Well why did he wet his hair in my shower to start with & why isn’t it dry with the drive? I ask what he told her & he just told her that he was sweaty. She didn’t suspect anything, it is the end of November so it is hot, so the sweat is a viable lie. She buys it & he’s in the clear. OMG, this is getting more & more risky every day! It almost makes me wonder sometimes when she finds out, how will that go down? Will she find us together or will she find my pictures om his phone? Will she leave him? What will happen?

Noodle is always up before me, especially now, he doesn’t message me first almost every like he used too. I know we have the agreement to take turns & we did but then we evolved to just whoever was up first would message. But Noodle has gone back to taking it in turns, I wonder if this is a thing Noodle is doing to test me, to see if I am interested in him (because remember that’s why he doesn’t message people first) or is he genuinely busy at work & with family or is he doing the guy thing – acting distant before they ghost you.

So I say good morning & “I miss your cock fucking me awake in the mornings” He takes 20 minutes to reply, I know he’s already at work. “It does like fucking you in the mornings” I am a bit sassy this morning “Oh does it? Could’ve fooled me… Hasn’t happened for like 8 weeks!” I await his reply, knowing it’ll be something about being so busy & I will get so angry! I know… “A lot of stuff going on at work lately! Doesn’t mean I don’t miss your tight wet cunt in the mornings!” that’s all we speak, then I don’t get a message from him till the Saturday afternoon at 3:30 pm that says “Morning, Busy ass morning. Bros bucks day today… was at the gun range at 10am haha” I refuse to write back. I mean he’s a fucking wanker. He could’ve messaged me a million times before 10:00 am, in the shower, on the toilet, while making breakfast, before he got to the gun range. He used to make so much time to message me, even sometimes when he was sitting next to her on the couch, he’d risk messaging me. At 10:20 pm, I write to him “Morning” & I don’t get a reply, I put my phone down & refuse to look at it. The next day, I’m outside painting my roller door, it’s a pain in the ass to paint metal with a paint brush & at 9:00 am, he replies asking why I said morning at 10:00 pm at night. I just say “I had a super busy day. No time to message” he tries to make a joke that I always say “Oh that old chestnut.” I am fuming so I say “I’m painting so I’ll talk to you when I’m not busy. See I can do 2 things ar once. But since you are so busy, I will let you get back to your busy schedule” I put my phone in my pocket & paint. What fucks me off, is that I am not like this at all, I can message him while I’m painting, I know she’s asleep & he has time, but fuck him. I am not going to make an effort anymore. He says “Hmmm, have fun paining, I guess….” I don’t read it for ages.

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At 11:00 pm that night, he hasn’t come back online, again & I snap “What is going on with you Noodle? And if you say the word ‘busy’ I will rip your beard off hair by hair with tweezers. This week you’ve come back online twice… Only twice after your partner has gone to bed. What am I supposed to make of that, you say you don’t want this to end but you’ve changed the game & I am certainly not hanging around for you to formally ghost me, so just tell me now.” I don’t sleep a wink all night waiting for him to come back online & reply, but he doesn’t. at 7:30 am the next day I finally get a reply. “I’m not planning on ghosting you, was just tired as fuck from sat night. I do wanna come back online more. I’ve only gone to the gym twice in the last week (PT only) so that’s how busy I’ve been. You got your tweezers ready?” It’s now or never, I have to get it out, I can’t have this conversation face to face because I never see him, this isn’t ideal “Well you’re making me feel invisible & insignificant. I can’t go on like this Noodle, I’ve had like 3 hrs sleep cos I can’t stop thinking about it. The thing upsetting me the most is that I had things to tell you this weekend, that I was excited about & I realised that you don’t even consider our friendship like I do.” I don’t think he knows what to say to that “Well I could of chatted more on Sunday but you gave me the vibe you didn’t want to chat so I backed off” Fucking hell, men are so stupid. “Because I was busy painting! When you’re busy I don’t even get a message at all!!!! But I’m supposed to drop everything when you’re free?!” Why am I bothering? He doesn’t get it, he never gets it. “No you can be busy, just saying if you wanted to chat on the weekend, we had a chance. Your not gonna believe me probably but I do value our friendship” Nope, I don’t believe that at all. “Yeah right now, I don’t believe that for a second. I used too… & your basically saying it’s my fault we haven’t chatted all weekend, because the 1 time you were free I didn’t chat… Bullshit. You haven’t talked to me all week… & 1 of the 2 nights you did come back online, you took over 10 minutes to reply to each message. I’m not making this up” This isn’t in my fucking head… “Not saying it’s your fault, just saying there was an opportunity. & I’ve had a lot of work to take home this week. I still reply” Yeah I guess he does, but I take work home & still reply, I snap (yet again!) “Do you want me to see other people?” I expect the response to be ‘part of the deal’ or ‘I’ll live’ but he says “If you need too, that’s up to you” That’s not what I asked to which he replies “No I don’t but that shouldn’t matter either way to you or me” Well at least I know that he still wants me “No it doesn’t. I’ll do what I want but I needed something from you… At least to know that’s not your game here… Piss me off so I leave you cos you’re feeling guilty. Or some fucked up Noodle bullshit…” Noodle tried to lighten the mood, which I appreciate because I hate feeling like this “I have more fucked up thoughts about you. They involve cum on your tits… ass… face. No I don’t want to piss you off” I tell him that I came last night & twice this morning with a new fantasy but refused to tell him what it was as I plan to do it when I see him, but I assume not Tuesday night “Ahh yeah about tomorrow I’m working the morning now so yeah won’t be available tomorrow night. My other manger is still on holiday & the guy I put on can’t do it. My week is fucked this week. Wanna sneak you in this morning towards the end of the week tho” OMG… “When were you planning on telling me? Or just wasn’t going to talk to me all day?” He says that he was going to tell me, but I highly doubt he would. I tell him that I’m a very simple creature all he has to do is fuck me regularly & he wouldn’t have any problems with me.

Things are back to our sort of normal, he’s chatting to me more regularly than he was, it’s either that his partner has stopped fucking him or my little meltdown reminded him how fragile this is & how easy it is for me to walk away (I wish that were true, then I wouldn’t be up to Noodle #27!) I am at jury duty & we get told that we have a long break, I tell Noodle this & he tells me to come see him at work for some lunchtime fun… In the middle of a week day, I think fuck yes & drive to his work. I pick him up & drive to the place we fucked before, it’s secluded & easy to find. We fuck quickly, both cumming & feeling satisfied before we both have to go back to work.

The next day, it’s December, Noodle finally says he’s going to come over & fuck me in the morning, I have missed this so much! I leave a key under my mat for him & wait for him to come over. We’ve talked about Noodle having a key for my house, I had given Max a key at one point for an intruder type fantasy, but Max never used the key. The key Max had is always used for my house sitter & I didn’t want Noodle to have the key someone else had, so a week ago – pre empting this exchange, I went to have keys cut – keys cut for him. Stupidly because green is my favourite colour, I get the keys cut in green keys. These will stand out if Noodle takes them, which I didn’t think about till afterwards. But when I tell Noodle to keep them he says he has a million keys & she won’t notice. Well, I hope not!

Noodle fucks me in the morning, sneaking into my bed at 7:00 am. Afterwards I ask him if he kept my key & he says yes, I ask him if he’s going to use it for my intruder fantasy & he says yes. I don’t really think it’ll happen – I’m not sure when he’ll be able to surprise me to be honest, but we go into detail about how this this go down…

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Noodle #26

This is the time to end it… Noodle is being a weirdo, he’s obviously getting what he wants from his partner, his new job is now a priority over me… I mean I knew what I signed up for when I started seeing him, I knew how stupid it was to only fuck one guy but I did it anyway. I knew that I would always be behind his family, but I never thought I would be a priority behind sleeping & his work! He always says that he hates sleeping that he doesn’t do it a lot & that’s true, I’m not sleeping much trying to stay awake to talk to him… But now I’m not sleeping because I’m too busy overthinking all the fucking reasons why he’s not talking to me!

Of course, I don’t fucking end it, for all those hoping that I did, I should because this is a perfect time, but fuck knows why I am so drawn to this man that I don’t. I do however, change my profile picture, I have just had my nieces christening – where I am god mother (Surely the church will burst into flames when I walk in?) & I bought a dress for it, a dress that I almost didn’t buy but, it’s a cute dress & fits me well, it’s short sleeves, short (too short for church!) & hugs my hour glass shape. I wear high blue heels & some navy jewellery. I take a picture before I go out, but Noodle isn’t chatting to me, so he doesn’t see the picture & I make it my profile picture. Everyone comments! All the guys drool over it, I don’t even know why, I honestly almost didn’t buy this dress but I guess I do look good in it! When Noodle does finally talk to me he says “You look cute as fuck in that white dress” Later he tells me that he wants to fuck me in this dress… I don’t tell him that I have been getting private messages saying the same… People are saying in the group, so he knows, but I never tell him I also got private messages. I just can’t deal with the jealously right now.

Noodle talks to me more through the week, things are better, I feel better about us… I am not going to end it, as much as I should… I mean I don’t want to end it, I really don’t. This is the best sex of my life, I have never felt like this before, I can’t get enough of him, which I guess is part of the reason I’m so sad that he’s changed the dynamic, is he had enough of me & I’ll be discarded?

Noodle tells me that his partner isn’t going to be home Friday night & that he wants to fuck me at his house. WTF?! This isn’t a good idea… He explains to me that she’s in a wedding the next day & so she’s staying with the bride & he’ll be home alone except for his son. He wants me to come over once he’s asleep… The idea of this excites me but also scares me. What happens if she comes home or the kid wakes up? I really want to see how & where Noodle lives… But I mean this is overstepping the boundary. I only tell my sister about this & she tells me not to go, but I am in the car typing his address into my GPS when I get her warning. The whole way to his house, I get messages saying not to park in his driveway (as if I was going too) & not to park to close to his house… Fucking hell, why does he even want me to come over if there are so many parking rules.

I pull up a little down the street & tell him that I am there, I notice his overgrown garden, bushes & trees that are covering his house completely. I walk down the gravel driveway trying not to make noise, but of course that’s impossible in my Havaianas on gravel. I see both their cars in the driveway, his is at the back, so at least I know she doesn’t have a car to pop back home to see if he’s cheating. Again, I’m surprised about her. Surprised by the type of car she drives. To be honest, everything about this woman surprises me, she’s not at all like I imagine, I’m not sure why that is… Maybe the way Noodle describes her, or the way I imagine her to be. I am so intrigued about their house.

I walk in & he’s kissing me straight away so I don’t get much time to look around. We fuck on the armchair closest to the door before we move to relax on the couch. Noodle turns on some YouTube thing that he’s been watching, which is a Chester Bennington fundraiser concert, (Chester is from Linkin Park who killed himself a few months ago) We watch it together naked before I see a light switch on outside & I just up behind the curtain, he asks me what I’m doing & I have no fucking idea! He’s laughing & I say what the fuck turned on the outside light & he said probably one of their cats. I freak out so much, that I make him check the apple stalker app to see where she is. She’s safely at her friends, well her phone is at least!

My heart stops racing before I am rubbing Noodles leg & then sitting between his legs, sucking his cock. Before he cums, he picks me up & turns me around his couch so I am facing their kitchen, their house is quite messy, untidy, full of shit really, just as I suspected there is stuff everywhere, nothing like my house but there are 3 living here & it’s quite small. But I don’t have much time to look around before he is slipping into me from behind, as he pulls out, I’m not sure if he means too but he’s fucking my ass, quite hard. I move my hand to rub my clit (which helps loosen you up a little if it’s hurting a bit) & I tell him that he’s fucking my ass, he makes this grunting noise & cums pretty hard. I Can’t believe he just fucked my ass on his couch!

I stay for a while, I know he wants me to stay, we’re talked about it but it’s not a good idea. I sit there naked for a while before I start getting tired & I slowly get dressed, he keeps interrupting me to kiss me or touch me. I think if he leads me to their bedroom, I will fucking cave & stay the night. He doesn’t & I don’t… I get in the car, feeling this weird feeling of happiness that I got a few hours of just Noodle hanging out & being Noodle in his environment for a change & this feeling of sadness about the fact I’m driving away.

On the way home, I see a message from Noodle saying that he wishes I stayed over. We chat for a bit when I get home & I say that I wish I stayed over too, but we both know that’s not a good idea, with his son etc. As much as we want it, we really crossed a line tonight… I reckon this is one of the worst things I have ever done… It’s the worst thing I have done to another woman, that’s for sure! Fuck, though, I really want to find a time when I can sleep with this guy all night, actually sleep lying in his arms!

The next day, Noodle is getting ready for the wedding, he’s also getting his son ready & he sends me pics of the 2 of them pulling faces & smiling in their suits. Fuck Noodle looks hot, I’m reminded of him in this suit fucking me at my house only a few weeks ago… & somehow seeing him with his son, like that actually makes me like him more.

The next day he sends me pictures of him at the wedding & he’s in his suit but wearing white air Jordan sneakers. I look at the picture for a minute before I realise I’ve also never seen him in sunglasses, he looks literally like a model, he’s fucking sexy as fuck! Jesus Christ, I think that look is hot & I tell him so but he tells me that his partner had a massive go at him for wearing sneakers to a wedding. I actually think he looks really good & she should be happy that she’s with the hottest guy at the wedding!

Noodle is now at his new store Tuesday, it’s our regular day to fuck tonight, it might be hard for him to work it out being that this is a brand new store – well he’s been there a few weeks now, but I’m sure he’ll be keen to fuck me, so I don’t worry too much. I get the regular good morning message, I reply with morning & then all day, yes all day he doesn’t reply at all! He doesn’t even read my message. ALL DAY! All fucking day I wait, I refuse to message him, I don’t chat in the groups because I don’t want him to see that I’ve been online. FUCK. I know what is happening here. He can’t come over tonight, so instead of having a conversation with me, he just ignores me. This is the first time that Noodle has ignored me. Why is he ignoring me? Max has ignored me before, even Rob Rob has ignored me after chickening out on meeting me. But Noodle has always had a conversation with me, always been honest.

This is fucked… at 6:20pm that night I send a picture in sexy lingerie & say “I wore this to work today. Was going to skip gym & be on my keens when you got to my house waiting to suck your cock… Pity I’m not worth a measly conversation anymore…” He reads it almost instantly & replies “OMG you are worth a convo. Fuck me you look hot. I have had a legit busy day”

OMG, if I hear busy one more time from anyone, I will strangle a man! “You’ve been pulling away for weeks & now that your clearly not going to see me tonight just sends the message that you want me to end this…” AM I INSANE?! OMG, what am I even doing? I mean he has been weird for weeks, but I mean he doesn’t want to fuck me once & I start writing him off?! JESUS, no wonder I’m single! I have to wait hours for him to even read that message. Fucking prick. I send him a final message at 11:30 pm before I go to sleep “Message received Noodle, loud & clear.”Noodle lying differentThe next morning I have calmed down a bit & he hasn’t looked at my message, so I message him & say good morning with a question mark. 3 hours later he finally replies… what the fuck is going on with this guy. He’s now acting like every other guy on the planet. “Morning, no don’t want to end anything! Had to go to bed early last night. Got up at 4am, had to start early cos I got a docs appointment at 2pm today.” Well, why not tell me that yesterday? He always finds time to message me, what’s the big deal here? “Yeah I had to be up early too Noodle, but I haven’t slept a wink cos you are being weird lately & I can’t stop thinking about it” he asks how he’s being weird. “I know your response to everything I’ll say… but I can’t help the way I feel” he tells me that the lead up to Christmas is busy for him, like I didn’t already know that having worked in retail, “I know you’re busy, That’s what you say all the time… But lately you read my messages then never reply & don’t come back online at night… I’m fucking busy too, not that  you’d even know, but I always make time. You used to too…” he tells me that he does make time for me & comes back on most nights. “Not as much as you used too… it’s not in my head, don’t make me feel like it is” He’s that he wasn’t implying it’s all in my head & that he messages me as much as he can. “You had no intentions of seeing me Tuesday night I thought about it all day , I had back to back meetings & was finalise a big project & you wrote one message to me… But you’re being totally honest?!” he’s not being honest with me, as much as he says that he is “I thought about it all day just wasn’t sure how I was going to tell you cos I know it would piss you off” Oh right, so instead of telling me you can’t see me, you ignore me all day? Fuck men are so stupid! I tell him “You’re not the only ones who’s busy Noodle… I won’t bother trying to fit you into my day anymore.” He starts writing back straight away but I refuse to read it. I put my phone down & ignore the stupid app…

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