April 2024
Interestingly, the only social media that Marvel is not blocked on is TikTok. I don’t know why I haven’t blocked him on there, but because his number is in my phone, he comes up on everything & I usually block him. But for some reason I don’t block him on TikTok. I don’t post a lot ever & if I do, it’s about my dogs. The night before we have planned to see each other, I get a notification that he has looked at my profile. This is the first time & it isn’t the last but it’s not often that he does look at it, but he does. But what the fuck is he doing? Why is he looking at it? Can she see it? Is it her? Oddly though, I don’t block him. I do however, ask him a while later if she has TikTok & stalking me on there, because she was obsessed with checking out my Facebook, so assuming she’d find me wherever else she could. He says that she watches reels on Facebook but not TikTok. I can’t find her under her name to block her. He is now blocked on there & LinkedIn since he told me he uses that too…
When he arranges to come over after his work, so around lunchtime for him as he works part time. I take my lunch break. Today he kisses me, really kisses me. His kisses are usually rougher & he’ll bite my tongue, which I like (kinda) but don’t love, today he kisses me, kisses me passionately. It’s different to his usual kissing. He kisses me deep & I even mention the next day that he kissed me different. He says that he didn’t kiss me differently. He also kisses all over, my tummy, my inner thigh, around my cunt, before he goes down on me, teasing me & making me beg him to let me cum… & I fucking begged. He never usually does the trail of kisses over my body, like hardly ever…
Look, I like to be teased to cum, or for him to stop kissing everywhere but my sweet spot. But I don’t like being so turned on I am begging him to touch me – well, maybe I do. It’s a love hate relationship. I fucking hate being teased, but fuck I love it!! But jeez I hate that he gets me to a point where I am begging for him. In the moment, I don’t even realise that I am begging, or so desperate from him to make me cum, it just comes out my mouth. I’ve never really talked during sex before & so with Marvel, when I beg him to let me cum or tell him I am cumming, it’s so involuntary. I don’t even realise I am doing it. I don’t think he minds at all! He chuckles like a fucking prick when I am whining & begging for him to make me cum.
He isn’t at my house long this day so there isn’t a lot to write about because we also don’t see each other much in April & of course we chat for only a few messages each week – if that. The chat is mostly about him edging me when we saw each other.
One of the most annoying things with Marvel is when he says to me “Are you able to work from home tommorow morning” & I reply, almost straight away – knowing that he might not be online for long so if I don’t write back quickly, I might miss the opportunity for him to see it. In this case I had to say no but of course I offer up another option, but he doesn’t read it for 2 days! How does he even know what I wrote?! What if I planned to stay home & organised it – because I have to tell my staff etc what I am doing, so I can’t just do it on a whim. Imagine if I planned to stay home & he didn’t rock up…
Fuck, no wonder why I get so angry & hate him so much. But of course, then my vagina calls his name, he comes back online & I crumble like a piece of paper. This is not the first time he’s done this & it isn’t the last either. Always on his terms, always when he dictates.
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