Here is the post I forgot to post last week! Hahaha… Whoops. I know why, because I hadn’t done the heart so I forgot to post it! Sorry… Also this new wordpress is a disaster to use & keeps telling me I don’t have the authority to make changes to posts! FFS.
Happy Valentines day to those who celebrate it & to those who don’t. Happy Blog post day! Enjoy. xxx
So anyway just to wind back to the end of 2019 when I was seeing Silverlining, 2 months since I last saw or heard from Elvis, he is back! As you all know, I am heavily involved with Silverlining again & it’s not a good position to be in. So as much as I hate doing it, I engage with Elvis. He’s cute, young & not too bad in bed.
Now because I wasn’t thinking clearly with everything going on with Silverlining & the stuff going on at work that I don’t remember a lot from this but I know there are 2 times I catch up with Elvis during this time, I wrote some notes but this will be pretty vague & so this is all mainly from memory. However, it’s a part of my story & something that I feel is important to explain why I do what I do in the future & why I am like I am.
So Elvis was seeing someone but that ended which is why he is messaging me again – I seem to be his rebound. I mean this guy is a fair bit younger than me but he is cute, we get along, he’s funny, he’s fairly smart, he’s cleaned up his act & working again. Besides the age gap, I am not really sure why this guy isn’t interested in me, if he keeps contacting me when he’s single. Maybe I am just the fuck buddy with him…? I don’t know but I mean I am not sure I want more but surely I am worth more than just a fuck buddy? I always just think I am too independent & strong for some men. But then I see the women they are with after mean & realise that they are wanting a trophy girlfriend, which I don’t think I am. I am not plastic with make up put on with a trowel. I am real, I have wrinkles & I am no a stick figure by any means.
Anyway he comes over & we talk a lot, having a beer before we have sex, I end up sitting on the kitchen bench chatting mainly about foods, exercise & healthy lifestyles, something that we have in common, I start to think that we actually have a lot in common & I do start to think, why have I kept this man at arm’s length, is it because he’s a friend of my friends ex-boyfriend?! A guy no one knows about, no one knows that I have ever met him, let alone fucked him… Anyway I am sitting on the kitchen bench, a subtle hit for him to make his move, when he does. He comes up to me, running his hands up my legs & kissing me passionately.
When I am with someone else, I don’t think of Silverlining while having actual sex but he always pops into my mind… This time he does & I hate that I am thinking about Silverlining & what he would think if he knew I was about to fuck someone else.
Elvis and I are naked in the kitchen before I take him to my bedroom. Elvis tries to be dominate & because he says he doesn’t last long with actual sex, the foreplay goes on for what seems forever. I am definitely not complaining, he’s good at it. I guess the only weird thing for me, well not weird as in he’s a weirdo but something I have never had done to me before, is he likes feet, like has a foot fetish, so he played with my feet a lot & also sucked on my toes. Even writing it is making me feel weird in my tummy. I am not sure a foot worshiper is for me, however I allow it & don’t mind trying this but it’s a bit odd for me & I start to wonder if he’s going to ask me to suck his toes. I really hope not because at this point he hasn’t even taken off his socks. I don’t want to suck his toes because I am not into that but also they would be hot & sweaty & the fluff from your sock between your toes… Like ewwww… Isn’t that call toe jam?! It’s a warm day so no thank you! I’ve been wearing sandals but I am not even sure I am comfortable with him sucking my toes but there you go, I allow it. I don’t think I will do it ever again – but you know me! I never say never. Hahaha.
Another time, I think that Silverlining & I were long over, perhaps. I don’t go out & fuck everything that moves. In fact I only have sex with 3 people between Silverlining & my next big thing… Elvis has just broken up with another chick & contacts me to meet up with him, I invite him over – this time it takes a bit of planning for some reason, but we make it happen. I am still very broken from the whole Silverlining thing & also bamboozled by the Tim Tam saga that I thought was going somewhere…
Again Elvis & I stand around having a few beers before we move into my bedroom, this time Elvis is very dominate. Like super dominate that I don’t even know where this has come from. He’s always been dominate but doesn’t take the lead if that makes sense, he waits for me to top from bottom to direct him what to do. This time he ties my up to the bed & makes me cum over & over again that I am squirting everywhere. I haven’t been able to squirt since Silverlining & even then the second affair with him, I didn’t squirt a lot in fear of leaving my DNA places it shouldn’t be!
When I am talking & telling him what I want him to do, he covers my mouth & stops me from talking… OMG when did Elvis grow some dominate balls? I fucking love it. Though the thought that always pops into my head when a guys in naturally like this with me – I think about Silverlining! FUCK.
After I cum & cum & cum, Elvis decides to wipes his cummy hands all over my face! OMG, I love this… What is happening? I don’t think he’s ever been this hot! I have to say I’m loving how dirty he is today! We fuck & he doesn’t last long while actually having but his foreplay game is so strong it doesn’t even matter…
I message him a few months later when things aren’t really happening for me with anyone but I get a non-committal type reply, I find out later that he has a girlfriend & they make it Facebook official, I see them together meeting the family at Christmas & she’s stunning as every guy I have sex with ends up with! I’m happy for him, it’s just a bit shit, why don’t guys have the chemistry with me enough to put in the effort for me? Aren’t I worth it?