Yes, before you say anything… This guy has a spelling error in his name! I don’t even know how I am going to keep up with it, it’s so annoying, I point it out to him & he says that he knows… WTF?!… So I nickname him Grape in my phone, eventually for reasons I can’t disclose or it will reveal too much about him. I met him online around the time I was online before Noddy – I think we met on the chat app but possibly we met on a dating site then chatted on the chat app… I can’t really remember how this begun, but we chat on the chat app.
We chat sporadically for a while but then he just kind of just disappears – he’s living in Port Lincoln but also staying . Following that, he tries to talk to me a few times but I ignore him… What’s the point? I mean is there any point, I decided I deserve better which is why I ended it with Silverlining 2.0 but I wonder if this is all I am going to get from a man. A half ass relationship, a half ass messaging buddy?!
But he comes back online to say “Merry Christmas Beautiful”, as you all know this is after I’m so hurt from the second break up with Silverlining, so I think maybe I need to give Coutry a second chance too!? If Silverlining deserves one, then maybe everyone else does!
I reply to him & we end up texting for a bit, he seems nice & I quite like him. He actually reminds me of a guy, I can’t remember what I nicknamed him though, possibly the dude from right at the start of this blog called Willunga.
We organise a date & I am not that into it to be honest, I have just ended something major to me, broken my heart, but I want a partner. I know I want a partner. I proper partner. Not just a half assed partner who has a partner already. I am not that excited about the date but I am trying to get excited about it. I am out with another friend when I get a message from him telling me that he is too sunburn to meet me. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I then get a shirtless photo of him with sunburn, yeah it does look pretty bad & does look like it would be sore, so I just say yeah no worries & something about hoping he feels better soon, I think I also say some shit about drinking lots of water. I am slightly relieved but also annoyed… Who gets that burnt the day they are going on a date with someone. I can honestly say that this is probably the most hilarious excuse for not being able to go on a date with someone?!
After that he disappears after that, he never tries to message me again, I mean what is that all about?! I don’t get why men put in so much effort, I finally agree to go out with them & then they bail? I’m not saying this is just an excuse to bail, maybe he really was sunburnt & couldn’t put on a shirt, but what I never understand when a man bails after putting so much effort to get you to say yes to them, why do they bail with a weird lame excuse & not lock in the next date? If I genuinely like a man – even do this with friends & have to bail on plans, I will apologise profusely & try to lock in a date in the future, something soon because I will feel so terrible… People bail on me, don’t really say sorry, don’t really care, don’t lock in the next date.
A few months later, he tries to talk to me again, I sporadically reply but I am not interested in this man. Why would I want to be with someone who doesn’t want to be with me?
When you read stories like this & if you don’t really get my connection with Silverlining, this is why. This type of guy. It happens to me so often, they put in so much effort then disappear. I don’t get it. But this is why I got so involved with Silverlining, regardless of his life outside of me – right or wrong – he was consistent. He messaged, he told me how he felt. As much as it was shit he had a whole other life, I didn’t even doubt his feelings for me. I doubt that these types of guys are even interested in me or if they are just dating to see how many women they can get to say yes to a date with them?!