Too Eager

So my online profile ‘post Milky’ has ‘looking for a relationship’ in my looking for description & I come across Too Eager who in our first conversation was very keen to delete his online profile when we become a couple. Red Flag! Already warning bells are ringing for me, this isn’t a guy who’s interested specifically in me, this is a guy who is just desperate to be in a relationship. I’m non-committal to set a date for our date, he tries to get me to come to his house or a wine bar, I suggest a movie.

Before I go on, it’s just under 2 weeks since I ended it with Milky & have just stopped thinking about him as much as I was – that was probably my big mistake! At Easter, Good Friday family event, he texts! Yes Milky texts to see how my weekend is starting out, I reply a while later after my mind has settled down, just saying to him that I’m at a family thing nothing exciting. He replies almost instantly saying ‘just boring family stuff hey, well hopefully you get some good eggs out of it!’

FUUUuCCCcKKKkK!

Then I can’t get him out of my head again, I wake up really early on Saturday & clean! (I’m like Monica Geller from Friends, she cleans when she anxious! If my house is spotless, there’s something I’m worrying about!) I over think, why would he text, is it because he actually misses me? or is it because he’s just interested to see if I’ll sleep with him again? Or has he not found anyone else to sleep with him & hoping I won’t find anyone else if he keeps dangling the carrot & wait till he’s ready. Seriously, I feel like this shit only ever happens to me!

Anyway I secretly hope that Milky texts again on Saturday but when he doesn’t, I text Too Eager & ask him to the movies. I feel bad about it because Too Eager seems actually interested in me (well a relationship with someone at least!)

We meet at the movies, that I bought the tickets for, he tries to give me money but I say no, he buys the drinks at the candy bar. We go straight into the movie & I ask him about 10 questions but get none back, he doesn’t even ask the same question back to me & I can’t help but think about Milky & how easily the conversation flowed with him. This then leads to a stupid line of thinking about what it would be like to be on a date, an actual date with Milky. Would he have held my hand? Would he have snuggled in the seat with me? STUPID!! STOP!! Milky never even asked me on a date!

This doesn’t help poor Too Eagers case either, because I then start to pick on everything I don’t like about him, not only have I made his nickname Too Eager but his nose whistled – one of my pet peeves including loud breathing & chewing, he didn’t ask me anything or say anything interesting at all. We chatted a few times since the date on the online app, but I never see him again.

#IBD4U