Motocross #25

I bet you all thought the Motocross story was over, but it’s not! hahaha… I’m not sure this gives you any more answers than what we had, but nevertheless, there is another post on this dude.

So we’re still jumping ahead here – a week later, I am using snapchat a lot more than I ever do, I am taking pictures of all sorts of shit & posting to my story mainly to see if Motocross is looking. He looks at every single snapchat that I post to my story, generally he’s always the first one to look at them… No matter what time of day, he looks at it first. Why did he even bother to message me?! I figure there is no harm in asking, I mean it’ll probably all be lies anyway, but why not ask. I’m over this stupid thing I had for him so why not just ask & see what the fuck he is thinking – I think about messaging him lot but I never do it.

One night I am driving out of my street to a Christmas dinner, where I get seated opposite Doppleganger from the gym FFS (He’s so fucking nice, I want to hate him but I can’t!). I see Motocross driving his car literally past my road, I pull out behind him & change the way I was going to the restaurant to see if it was him – it was. I wonder what he’s still doing in Adelaide. If his story is true. It’s passed the 5 December when he said he was leaving… Why is he still here? I decide a few days later to just fucking ask him! “Can I ask you a question? Why did you want to say sorry to me if you weren’t going to ever try to see me again?”  I don’t understand this guy at all, why did he go out of his way to message me, to say sorry for not talking to just ignore me, when he’s clearly still in Adelaide! “I was planning on seeing you again. Unfortunately I became really busy packing the my pop pasted away & just ran out of time” His pop passed away – yes he wrote pasted. Hahaha – not funny about his pop  of course but funny the words he can spell & the words he misspells. I roll my eyes because as if this is true, however, I play the condolence card again – just like I did with his dog… “Sorry to hear about your pop. You have to have a lot of family things going on… When did you go back?” I wonder if he saw me driving on Saturday night & I can catch him out in a lie?! I’m hoping that I will be able to catch him out in a lie finally & say something. “Yeah thanks its been coming for some time Unfortunately just would’ve picked it yet that’s all. Nah no family problems that was it. I left on Monday.” Didn’t his cousin have a stroke & his dog died, now his pop died… All of this in the three months that he was staying in Adelaide?! Doesn’t this sound like Noddy & how much shit he had happen in the three months he knew me too… Why am I the magnet to drama filled idiot guys? So at least Motocross didn’t lie about still being here & his story is plausible that he left after I saw him driving, so he either saw me on Saturday or he really did go back Monday.

I look at the time & realise that in LA it would be like 3:00 am, I google the time & I’m right… “Is it like stupid o’clock over there? Shouldn’t you be sleeping?” Considering the amount of times he fell asleep on my couch at like 10:00 pm, as if he is awake at 3:00 am LA time. “It’s 2:54am here yeah my brother called & forgot the time difference apparently. I’m fair tired yeah sorry” So he’s probably googled the time or this is true… Can I even believe this story & why am I trying? “Right, I’ll let you sleep… Bit of a shame how things worked out with you though TBH.” He doesn’t read it till the next day when I wake up there is another message for me… So now he knows I’m suspicious he needs to be careful about when he writes back. “What do you mean how things worked out with me” I want to say more to him, I want to be really honest & get some answers from him “Just how somethings didn’t add up & that’s when you ghosted me… Just sucks cos I trusted you” I hate that I trusted this guy, that I really liked this guy, & I hate so much that Silverlining was right – he was right about Cowboy & he was right about Motocross, that I am still trying to make it work with Motocross even though he’s clearly not interested. How desperate am I, FFS?! He says he didn’t ghost me, that he just ran out of time. He starts calling me on snapchat, I didn’t even know that was a thing, I am at work so I don’t answer, then he says sorry he wasn’t meant to call me. Fucking hell. I say that I am pissed that I said I’d leave it with him & then never heard from him again. He replies “I’m not the best at replying or responding to people unfortunately. I’m not the sorta person that just sleeps with someone then that’s it even tho it seems that way I did feel really bad for not talking sooner I thought about it a lot if you really wanna know just didn’t know what to say tbh”  I say that I’m annoyed I trusted him & slept with him so quickly & without a condom no less. He says that he didn’t think it wasn’t me who was the problem & then says “I’m just gonna stay single!” RIGHITO then!

He says he’s really sorry that I’m really funny & thanks for the sharknado memories. I then ask why is he still replying so much (& with long messages) if he’s not interested in me. He asks why I think he’s not interested & I say just a vibe I get from you & he never replies again. Oh good, this old chestnut!

A few months later, I have a weird dream about him & when I wake up without thinking, I text his Australian phone number – I’m not even sure why I do or why it happens so suddenly, maybe I’m still a bit asleep & not thinking straight, but I text saying I had a dream about him & I in hospital together but he never replies… Either he just ignored it because he needs to pretend he doesn’t have that number anymore or he genuinely doesn’t have that number.

Ok, so jumping forward some more time later, this is a tid bit from real time now it’s Covid-19 lock down – it doesn’t give too much away about my present dating status, but I thought we need some answers about this guy. I have been walking every day with a friend as we are both working from home, we talk about everything & Motocross comes up a lot as well as others in my past & present, she’s just a perplexed about what went on with him as I am, & mainly because he is still looking at EVERY single snapchat I send to my story, he is generally always first, no matter what time of day it is.

My friend picks me up one morning as usual but for some reason we happen to be chatting about Motocross & as we pull out of my street, who should drive past but Motocross… BAHAHAHA! She even points him out being I’ve described his car & what he looks like to her in more detail than my blog, however she does read. We laugh about it for ages & later that day I decide to message him & ask if it was him, he says no it wasn’t him, he’s not here & that it must have been his dad. What a crock of shit! I send a laughing face & he says that I’m not funny that he’s not back here till September. Isn’t this the guy who said he hadn’t been home for like 7 years & now he’s been home for months & coming back again a year later?! I tell him his story was always hard to believe & I find it funny & he says “If you wanna cause trouble or drama don’t bother . I’ve really got no idea what your on about” Cause trouble!? With who?? How?! By not believing his story? Hahaha. I ask how & he says that I’m laughing at something that’s not funny – um yeah it is dude. He then says “Your insinuating I’m lying when I’m not . And apparently my story no idea what story is hard to believe”  I also notice that his full stops aren’t next to his words, like what happens with Silverlining. What is that about.

Motocross found him

I apologise for pissing him off, say it must’ve been his doppelganger in the same car. I look at the time in California, it’s 4:00 am. I mention that to him & he says that he’s actually in Florida at his house there & it’s just after 7:00 am & what do you know, he says that he’s brother just called him so he’s multitasking… Not that old chestnut too! His brother who he didn’t speak to that much has happened to call the twice I have messaged him & questioned the time of day… Interesting though Motocross & I have been messaging solidly for about 8 hours, meaning if it’s 7:00 am where he is, he’s not slept all night!!! He says that he sleeps though the day a lot because there is nothing to do with Covid. I laugh at him because he used to fall asleep on my couch at 10:00 pm. He then stops chatting to me again.

Still not letting this go – even though I have moved on (Stories to come) & because he looks at every single snapchat I post to my story. One day I find a book with his signatures in it, remember when he did that?! Well I send a snapchat to him direct & remind him that he never signed something for me like he said he would. He tells me that he’ll send me something & asks (Yes he ASKS) for my actual address. I send it to him immediately because this will confirm a lot of things – if I get a parcel.  I ask him to send me some of the special fruit loops too that he had sent from America while he was staying here that he went on & on about.  A few days later I post on my story about my strapped up foot & he asks what I did, which is unprecedented, he doesn’t normally reply to any of my posts, he just looks at them all.

My friend I’m walking with decides to stalk him & she finds out where he lives, like WTF. My god, people are easily found. On the way to our walk one morning, she drives past. His car is definitely the car we saw as it has distinctive licence plates, which is parked in the driveway of this house. There is also about 6 cars, including one I know to be his brothers (Story to come on that too!) Seriously, how easily are people found. Also what’s more fucking hilarious, is that it’s about 6 streets away from my house across the expressway! Jesus!

But the parcel, oh the parcel…  You guessed it, here I am 3 months later still waiting for this so called parcel to arrive! So the question now is, should message him & ask where it is?? Or should I just leave it?

#IBD4U

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