While I think that all my blog posts are NSFW (Not safe for work) you read at your own risk at work (hopefully not on your work computers! Hahaha) You should probably take this as a blanket warning that all Silverlining posts are probably NSFW anymore! Hehehe… ENJOY!
I wake up to a few messages from him “Morning sexy bitch. Like legit Sexy bitch. So I was thinking Thursdays around lunch time at my house was would be the best times” I got my dates confused with him too he thought I was away Wednesday but I don’t actually fly out till Thursday night. I smile because last night when he logged off around 10:00 pm when he got home from work, he was saying that he’ll see what he can do, this morning at 6:30 am, he’s giving me options when I can come see him! I say I’d have to leave his house tomorrow around 2:00 pm to make it to the airport on time & he says that he’s only available from about 11:30 am to 2:00 pm when his daughter sleeps. I don’t want to get too excited so I just say to see how he goes & he says sure thing, exactly what I said last night so I call him a fuckwit. I can’t help but smile at the fact that he has clearly woken up early & thinking about how he can see me again, this week before I go to Brisbane. He makes me smile one minute & then I can be reminded so easily that this man is not mine, that this man will never be mine.
When I call him a fuckwit he tells me that I love it, which I do love his douchy side, I don’t know why. “Especially when I edge you” he has been the only man that has ever edged me to the point I am so close & don’t cum, I mean I can’t even do it to myself, I can’t stop. He stops & I call him a prick, which he loves & I then become a brat & try to rub my own clit, it’s a little game we play but it’s fucking hot & makes me cum so fucking hard. I tell him that I hate it when he does that – I mean it’s a love hate relationship with edging, it’s so frustrating but is so good when he finally makes me cum, “Your pussy cumming hard for over a minute tells me otherwise” I did cum very hard & for a long time. I hadn’t cum like that in 18 months & it felt good, so good that when he pulled his fingers out of me, they were dripping with my cum, to the point that if I was with someone random & saw his fingers, I would have been self conscious, but I know that he would have loved it. “I’ve never seen the wetness on my fingers like that, Turned me on so much lol” I remember that it was sticky & creamy & when he pulled his fingers out of me, they were coated in my cum & as I was lying there in the split second I was about to feel embarrassed, he stuck his fingers in his mouth & sucked it off. He says that he’s never pulled his fingers out of someone before & witnessed their wetness when he pulled apart his fingers. He tells me he’s hard which isn’t a surprise, I am turned on when we talk about how hot our sex was too. I tell him that I was a little embarrassed & he says that I shouldn’t ever be embarrassed, I am sexy as hell, with my little moans & wet cunt.
He also tells me that he was expecting me to be fatter than I am. He says that I talked my gut up so much that he was expecting me to be fatter than I was when we were together. In fact I have lost a bit of weight, he says that I am legit sexy & I shouldn’t worry about what I look like. He starts talking about my ass too & then I can’t decide if he’s a tits or ass man, most guys you can tell but he’s all over both of mine that I can’t tell which he prefers.
We get onto the topic of affair number two, the elephant in the room, the thing we shouldn’t be doing. He says that I shouldn’t be talking to him or fucking him or worse of all cuddling with him. It’s his subtle way of reminding me that he is not leaving her, in fact it makes me feel like they actually got married… Surely not?! But nevertheless, it reminds me that he is not leaving her & never will. I say that it’s ok, that its somehow different this time. I can’t explain it to him really but I know it is, he seems to be able to explain it better than I can, saying that we’re more honest this time that we aren’t holding back with our feelings. I say that it won’t change our situation but yeah that’s what I mean. When this is over, I won’t regret knowing I gave it my all & he doesn’t believe my love for him, then I can’t doubt what I had with him. He tells me I held back all the fantasises of wanting to live with him, how much I loved him, how much I wanted his kids in my life & how madly in love I was with him. However, again, I say that it wouldn’t have made a difference. She pulled a stunt he couldn’t walk away from, I don’t even think he would have left her if I was pregnant after that. There was nothing I could have done to show him the life he would have with me because she knew the one thing he fears is his kids not having their parents around when they’re growing up.
He reminds me about the day that I had him all to myself & slept the whole day because I ate a weed cupcake with Origin. He’s about to go offline for the night & he’s picking a fight with me, telling me that he was pissed off so much so that he almost ghosted me, but he was already having feelings for me that he didn’t. We are having a fight about he people that we wanted way back when in 2017 when we first met on the chat app & then he says “Anyways I must go. As always it was good chatting to you” I laugh out loud. He says “Chat later x. Maybe see you tomorrow” I smile & say yes that I love him. He doesn’t say it back but then sends “Love you too… Dammit” I laugh & he’s gone…
So I wake up trying to not be excited about seeing him again today however, I can’t help myself but pick up my phone & look straight at the app for his good morning message, which is there “Morning sexy ass” & I laugh & write back sleepily “Morning Cutie Pie” to which he says he is not cute nor a pie, but I remind him of the cream pies that he’s given me before. He tells me off for turning him on & asks why he is dying to fuck me again. I try to play it cool, I have to wait for him to invite me over. But as I get home from the gym & shower, I pay careful attention to what I put on. A white body suit lingerie, getting ready in a cute outfit ready to possibly see him again today.
He’s busy chatting turning himself on about the fact that I’ve gotten better at sucking cock, he says I was average before but now I am amazing. Well he always told me I was amazing, so I don’t know how I’ve gotten better, I’ve barely sucked any cock since his. He tells me that I improved his kissing & oral skills, which just pisses me off because I made him better for someone else, who didn’t really want him until I did. I tell him that I am not better than I was, that he’s probably only getting average head & he says that she’s good which makes my gut wrench, I hate hearing about what she does for him now. He says that he was close to cumming the whole time I was sucking his cock & I say that he should’ve cum on my face. But then say “Though I suppose it’s not as exciting as it once was, now you can do it all the time” & he tells me what I knew would happen, that she doesn’t let him do… They did it once a long time again & they haven’t done it since – what a fucking surprise… NOT.
As if to change the subject he says “Still on for 11:30” I smirk like a dick & need to stop thinking about their sex life, so I tell him that I will have more than one condom with me today in the mood strikes us. I tell him that I want to cum before I come over & he says I can then changes his mind & says I can’t until I get there. I tell him I am going to rape him when I get there & he laughs at me. I ask him what he would like me to bring for us to use if the mood strikes, I know he doesn’t like planning but he says that he likes my little white vibe & something to tie my hands up with!
As I’m getting ready, not only to go fuck him, I am also packing to go to QLD later today, my friend from KI rocks up at my house. I lie my ass off to her about where I am going, not only because I can’t tell anyone I am fucking Silverlining again but I also don’t want to hear the judgement. I know this is fucked up & I’m going to be hurt, I don’t need to hear that from anyone. I get rid of my friend by saying I’m going to lunch with my sister being it’s her 40th while I’m away (didn’t plan that fucking well, but I did throw her a surprise party since she didn’t want a party with a few close friends last weekend) but I tell him I am on my way & he says that he better put his daughter to bed. I message when I get there because I am not sure she’s asleep, I don’t know how long it takes an 18 month old to go to sleep in the day but he writes back that she’s asleep & I should come inside.
I am shaking with excitement, nervousness & trepidation. I mean being at their house is always a risk obviously, she could rock up home any second. He told me that she has just rocked up home on his days off before because she thinks he’s cheating on her still… But ironically she doesn’t think I know where they live, so I don’t know why she thinks I have been there before. He says he’s denied that I’ve been to their house before. So I’m confused what she thinks to be honest, but whatever, I am at their house, in lingerie with a vibrator, condoms & a set of velcro hand restraints in my handbag…
I will admit that as I walk in & I see the piles of crap, an old mattress, toys & other shit piled up outside that I never really noticed before, I mean I only ever really came here at night before but I notice what a messy house or yard they have, it’s not like a hoarders paradise but it’s just crap that they haven’t thrown away. Their house is messy & over crowded, there is 4 people living in a house that is smaller than mine, so I get it but there are bookshelves overflowing & there is always a clothes drying rack in the lounge room full of clothes. They also use the air vents in the ceiling as a hanging space for drying clothes on hangers. I even notice the top of their fridge which is fill of crap, boxes of cereals & protein containers that I wonder how the fuck she even found my panties, unless he had them at the front.
But I don’t have much time to look around, nor do I really care about what his house looks like or soak up the surrounds as he’s kissing me, with such desire, I can feel it. Feel how much he wants me, not just because his cock is instantly hard, but with his touch, with his kiss, with his eyes, his eyes always give him away with me!