Silverlining #27

It’s interesting looking back on this & realising how fucked up this is, not only am I midst affair number two with a man I am in love with & have been in love with for almost three years, but I am meeting him at his house… Remember that his phone is tracked, she even pings it when she doesn’t trust he’s where he says he is. This means of course we’re limited to where we can meet. I have had sex in their bed once but neither of us will risk that this time. I also realise now how fucked up it is that his kid is asleep in the next room – I mean parents have sex with their kids in the next room all the time, or there would be no siblings I guess, however I’m not sure that people have had affairs with their kid in the next room? This also isn’t the first time I have fucked him at his house while his kid sleeps. At the time when this was happening, I didn’t think it was weird, I was just thinking with my vagina, knowing that I was able to see him, I didn’t think anything by it. But regardless, right or wrong, weird or normal, I have done it, twice. I am at his house in sexy lingerie while his kid sleeps. But really, in the scheme of fucked up things I have done, I’m not even sure what is the front runner? Everything in this whole story is all kinds of fucked up.

Another thing before we get into the sexy NSFW part of the story, when I see him, I make sure I take notice of his hand… I don’t know why but I just have this feeling that they have gotten married, but there is no ring on his finger & there doesn’t seem to be a dent in his finger from where a ring would have been, that’s he’s taken off to fuck me. Surely they wouldn’t have gotten married after being together for 12 years now at this point, maybe even 13 years, going through an infidelity saga then coming out of it to get married. I never ask him either, I don’t know if I could handle the answer to be perfectly honest. But I have a feeling.

My most favourite thing, possibly what keeps me going back is the passion & the look in his eyes, I love that look when he sees me in lingerie more than anything in the world, that look like roger rabbit when his eyes pop out of his head. He’s naked & I’m close to naked standing there in his doorway kissing with such abandon. Our hands are everywhere. It never gets old, we never lose this undeniable passion for each other. He pushes me to my knees which turns us both on & forces me to suck his cock, this rough play always turns us on even more. I know he loves it, I love it & I suck his cock on my knees in lingerie while he thrusts his hips into me, fucking my face & I love when he then grabs my hair & pulls it a little, helping me to suck his cock better. The noises he makes when he makes me suck his cock, the little moans I make against his cock I know he feels, he’s told me before… I use my hands to rub his cock as I suck & it makes him moan even more. When he’s close to cumming, I can tell because he bends over trying to get his cock out of my mouth but also he doesn’t want me to stop, but I know he doesn’t want to cum yet either. We move over to the couch in his games area & he pushes me on the couch to use the white vibe on me, he edges me so many times that I am hating him for not letting me cum that I beg him to let me cum, I even say that I can cum more than once for him & want too, I pull the puppy dog eyes, I start calling him a prick & asshole nothing works till he finally lets me cum & I cum hard & for a long time. He then lays me down length ways on the couch, grabs a condom, slides it on & then fucks me, we both make this noise when his cock enters me, like a moan & a sigh all rolled into one noise, a noise that is just like relief, the thing we’ve wanted since I got here 30 minutes ago. I’ve wanted his cock inside me, feeling his weight on top of me. We are fucking hard, our hands everywhere, I ask him where he wants to cum & he says his usual “Don’t say that” which turns me on more & makes me ask him more, till he pulls out of me, takes the condom off & cums on my leg. He says he’s been trying to hold on for so long but didn’t want to cum on my leg. He sits up & we sit there chatting.

He tells me while we’re cuddling, having a breather, while we’re sitting there between sex, that his partner after the first time we had sex sat in his games area, that she never sits on this couch or goes over here but for some reason during the last couple of days since I was there last, she sat here. I will admit that it crosses my mind to leave a bit of condom wrapper down the side of the couch, it’ll be found one day, he might tell her it was there for years but he only created this games area since ending with me the first time, so I don’t know if she’d believe it… But she seems to believe a lot of bullshit he spins. OMG, I want to leave a snippet of condom wrapper. It would be so easy, I could 100% deny that I did it on purpose, it would genuinely seem as a accident, especially since I did take the used condom & wrapper last time we fucked. This could be genius! However, because I am who I am, I don’t, I pick up everything again & take it all home with me. I mean I even have this thought with an earring or something else but I don’t want to lose anything. So I don’t. However, fast forward a few days, after this time Silverlining tells me that on her day off when he was at work, she moved all the couches around & the one he had in the games area has now been moved into the lounge room & he has the other couch. OMG, imagine if I had of left the condom wrapper?! I wonder what would of happened, in a way I am glad it’s just crazy thoughts for me, that I never actually do it. Sometimes I wish I was crazy because then I might get what I want just once.

Silverlining happy things didnt turn out

I know I have to leave soon, so I want to fuck him again, I start rubbing his cock & make him hard again, it’s pretty easy to do when I kiss his neck & ears, he loves that, almost like no one has ever done it to him the way he reacts. It makes him hard easily, I straddle his lap, still in lingerie, his cock hard between us, While there is a barrier there, we have pretty much rubbed up against each other so much we would have anything that the other had, but I am kissing him, struggling so much to want to stop & put a condom on, but struggling with the fact I know how it feels when his bare cock is deep inside me. I want that feeling… I am struggling so much with his decision as I kiss him & bob up & down on his lap, I rock back & forth, up & down – his hands on my ’tiny little waist’ as he calls it, helping me move up & down. FUCK I have never struggled with a decision like this before. I am usually careful, but I want his cock & I want it bare… I look at him & he is giving me a look like he wants it too, which makes it harder to stop, I growl fuck as I get off his lap & get a condom… Literally the hardest thing I have ever had to do during sex!

He pushes me off him once I’ve cum riding him, to lie on the couch again & he takes my hands & ties them up in the velcro restraints that I brought with me & goes down on me, fingering me till I cum against his face & hands again. JESUS… I am wet & dripping for him that he pulls me up off the couch, I am standing my tiny 5”3 stature against his 6’1, he kisses me but easily turns me around & bends me over the couch, he starts to take me from behind, but I am so wet that he slides easily into my ass, I love that feeling when he doesn’t mean to do it but it happens, I tell him that he’s in my ass & he says fuck really loudly as we fuck really hard, I cum again while being fucked & rubbing my own clit. I haven’t had my ass fucked for so long, I do love it every now & then, fuck it feels good!

Once we’re done, get goes to clean himself up & I sit back on the couch knowing I still have about 45 minutes before I have to leave & probably before his daughter wakes up. We sit there talking, cuddling, touching & seriously just spending time being very intimate. I love this time with him but I want him one more time before I leave, so I kneel between his legs & start sucking his cock from soft. I didn’t often see it soft before today, he was always hard around me & we always had a short time together. As I start getting him semi hard, I hear a noise & I think it’s his kid but I keep going, then it gets louder & he says “Fuck, never have kids” We laugh & he walks in her room, hoping to just put her back to sleep, I doubt this plan is going to work. I sit on the couch not knowing what to do. He goes to the kitchen & makes her a bottle of milk & takes it into her but she keeps making noise, so I start getting dressed when he says “She’s not going to tell anyone” & goes & gets her out of her room, puts her in the other lounge room with YouTube & makes her a quick snack then comes over to me again. I’m getting dressed, picking up all the evidence, scrambling to find my clothes. His daughter is only 18 months old & just woken up, obviously seen me & doesn’t want to stay in the lounge room, I am picking up my handbag when she comes over to me with her bottle. I love seeing Silverling with her, but this is a bit weird. When she turns back to the tv, I quickly kiss him goodbye – not wanting her to see to scar her, he says sorry for her waking up & says thank you. I leave feeling a little weird being the way that just ended.

I am starving after fucking him, my appetite is back, that I pull into hungry jacks & get a burger, I look at the app & there is a message from him “You’re the best I ever had” FUCK ME! That was unexpected. I tell him that he’s the best I ever had & that I just had a burger & am on my way to the airport. He says “Good girl. If I fuck You more you’ll eat more lol” I say “Now who’s thirsty for more…” I know that he wants me more, I don’t even need to hear it. He replies “Err ummm. Boundaries. You know what was hot for me. Just your face about how bad you wanted to fuck me without a condom. When your about to ride me. Hope I didn’t pull that look every time I put my dick in” he says that I’m lucky he’s not a terrible person because he thinks if he had’ve pushed me on the idea, I would’ve fucked him without a condom & he’s right if he said something like just ride me or something, I would have just fucked him, I mean by that point, if he has anything, I would already have it. But he says that he respects my wishes even though he’s a jerk. I will admit & I do say that it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, stop & put it on him. He says “It was so sexy even tho it was frustrating hahahaha”

I also tell him that it was super cute seeing him with his daughter as I rushed to get dressed like in record time. I really didn’t want to be there when he was being a dad, but of course my clothes are all over the house & I have to find my shoes, get the condoms, get the fuck out of there. He says that he doesn’t want me to see his dad side, but I think it makes him hotter being a dad, seeing him as a dad. I mean I have seen him with his kids before when they were at my house but he was busy messaging her all day while I held the baby & his son played on the ipad all day, so I didn’t see him really be a dad. This was the first time. I fucking love seeing that side of him.

At the airport I get a message on the chat app Silverling & I originally met on 3 years ago that I haven’t been using much because I am on the anonymous app all the time chatting to him, but there is a new private message from someone who we’ll call Marvel, who joined the group I run the other day & he says “Hey there Hottie” I don’t think much of it, usually I delete people out of the group who randomly private message, but I don’t, I don’t know what it is but there is something about this account that stops me, even though he hasn’t chatted & only been on the app for 28 days…. I ignore the message because I get new messages from randoms daily that I ignore & board the plane. Once in my seat, I tell Silverlining that I will message when I get to Brisbane, we say the usual love you goodbyes & I say thank you for today with a smiley face as a joke. & I settle into the plane seat for my flight to Brisbane, happy & smug… I haven’t had time to shower, I wonder if the person next to me can smell the sex permeating from my skin?!

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